The boy I was spending a lot of time thinking about and was maybe in love with was growing concerned about me.
He told mutual friends that I didn’t seem completely genuine when I was talking to him. Like maybe I was hiding something. Turns out, he was right.
One night, I texted him something along the lines of “I really need to talk to you about something.” He said he’d be at my house at 8.
While we figured out the details of the meet up (it was a secret from my parents at the time so we had to be Stealthy), he seemed VERY nervous.
Something about my tone had convinced him I was about to tell him I had no feelings and we could never be together. He was wrong.
We met at the end of my street. He hugged me and asked what was wrong. So I told him.
I told him that my brain doesn’t work like other people’s, and that doctors told me it’s called Autism Spectrum Disorder, and that it makes things hard. He laughed.
He said he couldn’t believe I had been so scared to tell him, because there was nothing I could reveal that would make him stop loving me. I cried I lot that night, but they were happy tears.
He is happy that he understands me more and always checks in with me about being comfortable in situations and being okay in general.
I love him and he loves me and I can’t believe I thought ASD could ever get in the way of that!!! I think our relationship is better because of it!!!
This is GROSS I hate love but I just wanted to write this down somewhere!!! Don’t let anything get in the way of loving someone!!!!
Don’t hide things because you’re afraid it will stop someone from loving you!!!! Someone will love everything you are!!!!!!!!!!