Have you ever felt the need to just unplug from the world for a while? Does it ever occur to you that no one might notice your absence or care enough to reach out?
Are you confident that the people you prioritize will look for you and afraid at the same time that they won’t even give a damn?
I keep asking my self over and over. What if? Then my thoughts start to scare me. And just like that, the idea of getting away for a while vanished into the thin air.
Coward is what I am. I am afraid of what I’ll discover so what I keep doing is the exact opposite of what my mind wants to do – to be connected.
Yes, I get too attached with certain people but that is because I, for one second, do not want them to feel unwanted and uncared for.
I choose to pour my heart out knowing that it would never be reciprocated. What can I do? My heart says I need them more than they need me.
This is a choice I’m making until nothing is left of me but a smartphone with a dead batt.