BAD DAY

today I had a bad day

it's okay though i'll try again tomorrow

today someone made me cry

but only when they were gone

when the memory brought back anger at myself

for being a stupid 'bitch'

for letting myself believe i had a friend

for letting them get to me

for letting them make me believe it was my fault

i nearly hurt myself today

because i thought i deserved it

i wanted to watch myself bleed, to feel some pain

i wanted to feel better.

but i didn't because i had a bad day

and that is okay

i'll try again tomorrow.