today I had a bad day
it's okay though i'll try again tomorrow
today someone made me cry
but only when they were gone
when the memory brought back anger at myself
for being a stupid 'bitch'
for letting myself believe i had a friend
for letting them get to me
for letting them make me believe it was my fault
i nearly hurt myself today
because i thought i deserved it
i wanted to watch myself bleed, to feel some pain
i wanted to feel better.
but i didn't because i had a bad day
and that is okay
i'll try again tomorrow.