Since when am i going so mad
Since that rainy day when we met
Since you held me that cigarette
And told a bunch of lies
to a complete stranger
bloody hideous lies
that's what i fell for
and not for your whiskey-dark eyes
i only like how you lie
only your ugly soul
because that decay is all
that i read in your insane glance
and then, you remember, we danced?
and, i remember, they stared
honestly, how not to stare
you were gorgeous that night
i wanted to poke out their eyes
and then you ordered us whiskey
it tasted like piss and scorched my troat
i drank it for the first time
you giggled at me in vivacious gloat
and told me, one day, it'll burn out my heart
or you'll burn it out
with those whiskey-dark eyes
that bottle could knock you easily out
but, to your luck, i thought it's too fancy
do you remember ?
they never stopped glancing
do you remember?
we joked 'bout killing someone
we kill ourselves
and we were all done
with ecstatic delusion and drivel
but then came the morning
the time of normal and sane
and you disappeared.
you know, every now and then,
when i drink watered-down whiskey
it still tastes like fancy piss
still has the color of your eyes,
and i like to think, that i drink them
that they scorch my throat
burn out my heart,
fulfill my madness, until i vomit
until it's morning.
the time of normal and sane.