I have OCD, known as Obsessive compulsive Disorder.
The definition is: a mental disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions),
and behaviors that drive them to do something over and over (compulsions).Often the person carries out the behaviors to get rid of the obsessive thoughts.
But this only provides short-term relief. Not doing the obsessive rituals can cause great anxiety and distress.
OCD is all about being a perfectionist, or needing to be excessiveley neat. There are lots of other ways that it manifests:Excessive fear of germs
Forbidden thoughts related to sex, religion, or harm to others or self
Need for order
They also perform repeated behaviors in response to their thoughts or obsessions. Examples include:
Checking and rechecking actions (such as turning out the lights and locking the door)
Ordering things in a certain way
Repeatedly washing the hands to ward off infection
Repeating words silently
Praying silently over and over
Not everyone who has habits or rituals they like to perform has OCD. But, the person with OCD:
Is not able to control their thoughts or behaviors, even when they understand that they are excessive.
Spends at least an hour a day on these thoughts or behaviors.
Does not get pleasure from performing a behavior or ritual, other than perhaps brief relief of anxiety.
Has major problems in daily life due to these thoughts and rituals.
People with OCD may also have a tic disorder, such as:
Repeated clearing of the throat, sniffing, or grunting sounds
OCD is commonly accompanied with anxiety and depression.
In my case, I have obsessive thoughts about being pregnant...it's really weird. I constantly hit myself to get rid of feelings..ugh. It's so hard to explain.
like logically, i KNOW i'm not pregnant. But the thoughts are...it's hard.
i also have other little quirks: counting, pacing, praying excessively over and over, organizing/destroying/reorganizing,
hoarding, making lists/throwing them away/making the SAME LISTS...
common thoughts i have is that i'm a sinner and going to hell, and i've got to repent; i'll end up hurting the ones i love; sexual thoughts,
even when i don't want them; worrying over having things i don't need;repaeting words that make no sense.....i constantly tap and talk to myself.
Only 1 in 40 adults and 1 in 100 kid sin the U.S.A. actually have this disorder. I hate it when people joke they have it. IT"S NOT FUNNY. It really gets in the way of living normally......
it's not fun to be looked at like you're fucking nuts.Ugh.
So yeah. I've been dealing with it in therapy for years. But it's not easy to be free of.....