Stage Fright

I want to stand on a stage

I want to stand on a stage and cut myself open --

I want to stand on a stage and cut myself open -- a voyeuristic surgery

I want to stand on a stage and cut myself open -- a voyeuristic surgery where I am the audience

watching your

watching your eyes pop,

watching your eyes pop, jaw drop,

watching your eyes pop, jaw drop, as I excise each mass and organ.

And I'll call that self-gratification:

And I'll call that self-gratification: "therapy."

I'll use your disgust so I can finally say:

I'll use your disgust so I can finally say: "I guess it's as bad as I thought."

But when the lights go on and you rise to your feet,

But when the lights go on and you rise to your feet, my blood slick enough to slip from your mind,

I'll still be there.

I'll still be there. Open and bleeding.

I'll still be there. Open and bleeding. Trying to find the place

I'll still be there. Open and bleeding. Trying to find the place where my heart used to go.