Even after all these years.
He keeps on lingering around my mind,
I thought I had forgotten about him,
Yet my mind still remembers theses bittersweet moments together,
While my heart doesn’t even beat the slightest to the memories.
Torn between the two,
Heart & Mind,
Am I just lonely and alone
That I keep thinking of him. Or
Do I wanna see him again.
But at the same time I don’t.
But I do.
But I don’t.
I don’t want old feelings to surface.
Honeyed or apricot.
I don’t want my restless nights thinking of him.
I don’t want my last thought to be of him,
Before I sleep.
I’m acting like I loved him....
Yet how can I have even loved him, when he treated me so wrong yet so....
He made me laugh.