Sorry, I'm busy

by amandamalagone

Sorry, I'm busy.

I'm busy going for a walk to clear my head.

I'm busy telling my brain to be quiet.

I'm busy fighting the urge to cry.

I'm busy trying to breathe.

I'm busy lying to myself .

I'm busy hurting myself.

I'm busy punching my walls and screaming.

I'm busy trying to see through my tears.

I'm busy asking myself why I am the way I am.

I'm busy gasping for air.

I'm busy feeling my stomach do back flips.

I'm busy yelling at myself.

I'm busy feeling my chest get tighter.

I'm busy chain smoking cigarettes.

I'm busy crying to the point of exhaustion.

I'm busy being physically drained from overthinking.

I'm busy looking out the window wondering how much longer I can live like this.

I'm busy thinking about everyone I am hurting.

I'm busy thinking about everyone I am losing.

I'm busy pleading to the unknown to make it stop.

Sorry, I'm busy.