I've been depressed before, but not like this.
There's a pain that almost seems like it's physical.
The things I've used to ignore it like movies, videos, and games...
they no longer push the feelings down.
Whenever I finish crying,
I never feel better anymore.
I have no appetite and eating seems unappealing.
I used to take sleeping pills to get the day over with and get on with the next
Now I don't even want to sleep because I don't want to get up the next day.
And it sucks.
It really does.
I thought it was so bad, I was going to get it over with and end it.
Three days before my birthday.
But I didn't.
I visited the suicide prevention lifeline website and I was able to get the help I needed then.
I'm slowly getting the help I need.
And if you need help, don't wait for it to get worse.
Reach out and get the help you deserve and need.
And if you know someone who is in need, please encourage them to reach out for help. Be there to support them.
That's all I have to say. Thank you.