I was Seven years old. I was a Child.
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alexnoelthere are enough daggers in my back
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I was Seven years old. I was a Child.

by alexnoel

I left my home

It was April 11, 2011. I was a child. I had my vest, 'sleeper', my toy, Sandy, named after a dead dog, a pink, glass paper weight from my brother. I did not bring friends. I was a child.

We slept in a hotel for 2 days

The flights were full, the earthquakes rolling in again and again, like the waves that would kill us. We went south, to Osaka, where I hadn't been before. I did not understand. I was a child.

We stayed in Hawaii

My great uncle expected us to have luggage, but all the four of us had was three bags of luggage, and my stuffed pet. I did not like the radio, my mother turned it off for me. I was a child.

I lived in California

My grandparents let us stay with them, and it was like a long summer break. My brother hugged me, my grandparents, too. We did not die. I did not know the people who died. I was a child.

I live for 2 years in the Golden State

I finish the remaining year, shaky. I finish another year, with children teasing me. 'Chinese!' they shout. I am Japanese. I yell back. 'Loser!' I did not find it funny. I was a child.

We move again

I live in Hawaii. 2 years go by and I go through it again. First I am too quiet, then I am too loud. When I am 10 I fight back. I tell them they are cruel, and punch and kick. I was a child

We change cities and schools

My mother tells me it okay. But I am still too loud, read too much. Lying in my bed I feel guilty for everything. I have caused it all. I did not feel happy anymore. I was a child.

I changed schools

It did not get better. Wherever I was I seemed to look down the buildings, stared at razors, punched my pillows. I did not know what was wrong. I was a child.

I move for Summer

My friends and I chat a lot, and I feel worse and better combined in the harshest way. My abuser is with me a week, he is harsh. I did not care that we ran from Japan together. I was a child.

I come back home

Music drowns out thoughts better than reading anymore. The handle on our porch I could jump; I would be gone. I did not know how much I was leaning, and the music shook me awake. I was a child.

I change grades

A year passes and so does half of middle school. When I lay in bed, thoughts cloud up. Do children think so much? I do not think I have been a child since April 11, 2011. I wish I was a child.

I am still young

Most times I do not feel. I feel things when I dream. Sometimes I daydream and I cry. That is my hope, my youth. I did not think I'd end up like this. I feel young like a child sometimes now.

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bernardtwindwilGranddad & story teller, tomthepo8.com
a year agoReply
This is an incredible story. I have lived through too many earthquakes to remember. I never had to be displaced by one. I admire you for your strength and courage, if this is autobiographical. If not, it is one hell of a story anyway.

lisaCats
a year agoReply
oh my gosh!! what a story!