when I wake up I contemplate if its worth it to get out of bed. if I have the strength to power through the day and make my family proud.
do I have enough time, have I planed enough, to stay in bed just a little while longer? do I have the emotional strength to put my feet on the floor and pull myself out of the safety of my bed?
can I open my eyes before my parents bang on the door and scream my name? why can't I just disappear into the mattress, and live inside the pillows?just one day, that's all I ask.
just one day to work me out and worry about myself for once. but I know that cant do that, and I have to wait 8 hours before I can sink back into redemption again.
until I can slink back to my room and sleep, only to repeat tomorrow.