You always said Christmas was your favorite time of year
The one day where people went out of their way to be kind
Where strangers smiled at you on the street
Where you felt that warm and fuzzy feeling all day long.
I never really celebrated Christmas as a child
But in falling for you I came to see it as you did
The best time of the year
I remember our first Christmas in our apartment
You were so excited to put up the Christmas tree we had gone and cut that morning
As I went to the car to get it, you watched me from the window
And the warmth of your smile was enough to keep my fingers from freezing
I remember that same Christmas
We were sitting by the fire
And as you fell asleep next to me, you whispered, “I love you”.
And that’s when I fell in love with Christmas too
But then, last Christmas Eve
You fell, hard to the ground
We rushed you to the hospital, and there they found tumors in your lungs
Terminal, they said.
That was my worst Christmas by far.
After you were gone, I had no hope of having a Merry Christmas.
Christmas was no longer the most wonderful time of the year
It was my darkest memory
I wasn’t going to celebrate this year
But it’s our daughter’s first real Christmas
I don’t count the one you were in the hospital
And I knew you you’d have made it special for her
And when I turned on the lights on the tree
Her eyes lit up exactly the same way yours did that night seven years ago
So I promise that we will always celebrate Christmas
Because it is the most wonderful time of the year
Because it’s the time I can most remember you
And I know our daughter will grow up to love Christmas just like you
Because she looks just like you, too
And she makes me have a happy Christmas, just like you did
Merry Christmas, Noel
I miss you.