You're asking for a confession?
Here it goes:
I was in love once
The kind of love where you think it's never gonna end and you'll live happily ever after forever
I was so in love
I was so trusting
I was so happy
I was so blind
He left me for another girl
The classic "it's not you it's me!"
The truth was we were fighting a bit
She was flirting a lot
He was probably flirting back
He liked the attention
As soon as he told me he had feelings for someone else
I was willing to forgive him
I was willing to do anything to stay together
He wanted to be with her
That part was more backstory than confession
The confession part is this;
Its been a year since he left me
And I want him back
Isn't that stupid?
Isn't that insane?
After all that happened
After all the hurt he caused me
All the sleepless nights
All the crying nights
All the heartbreak
And I still want to be with him
I'm torturing myself
I told him I was fine being friends
And I cry to myself after every time I see him
Especially if he's with her
That's like a knife to the heart
(Or to the back)
He hangs out with me and my friends
And the whole time I'm thinking, "not mine. not mine."
And oh so desperately wishing he was
What does SHE have that I don't?
Well, him I guess.
That's my secret
That being with him is addictive torture
That even though it's breaking my heart
I answer the phone every time he texts
I drop everything for him
I'd do anything for him
And yet he's not mine
And never again will be mine
Even though he'll always be
My Biggest Weakness