its the day of result and i have not secured the marks as excepted by my parents.i feel disgusted and very much shamed myself.
but i also not like to do suicide as i am not strong enough to kill myself.i hate the pain of dying and cannot see anyone dying before my eyes.
the reason of bad marks as i discovered new thing.the new thing is fapping.i love the cum which come out and give me pleasure.i do not know how these things happen.
but whenver i am in too much stress,i am addicted to do it.it brings life in me.
on the day of result to make myself relief of that suidial thoughts, i come to outer regions of my city where no one comes in any time.
i see people during morning time who jog to keep up the fitness.i come at noon.
making myself comfortable on the soil and i removed pant and start doing it with full speed and imagining all hot girls of porn.as i am going with my fapping,there i heard bark of dogs.
with sound i opened my eyes.i see a lady of 35 years moving with dog.after seeing ,i lost my mind control and i try to wear my pant fastly.
the lady who has moved his head ,turned his head towards me.smiling at me.
"can i ask you young boy?why you are doing this?"i feel very much in shame as i never caught like this in this activity.there are no words coming outside my mouth."sorry,miss.
i mistakely done this activity.i will never do this again." i was stameering while telling her things.she come and touched my shoulders."calm down!there is no need to fear.
i am not going to kill you.sit with me." we sit down on the soil along with the dog.
"tell me first,why you were doing this?do you feel pleasure in doing?" my face went red when she watching me."yes,i feel good in doing this.it helps me relases tension inside my head."
"what tension inside your head right now?"her hands on my shoulder to make me relax.
"i had done bad in my exam and fear is building inside too much.to relive my tension i had done this.atleast it releases my worry for time -being" she watched me for few seconds.
"you are not doing good thing.you are wasting precious thing.if you give this to any girl,she will be blessed.
" she then stood up and gone and i just watched her till hse completely vanished from my eyes.