Prose by adelinefecker
You came back to me out of the blue ready with your smile,
ready with your jokes. And I could not deny you. I’m trying to learn what this new version of us will look like. How we will fit but not fit.
Touch but not touch.
Friendship is hard but you are worth it. At least you think this is easy. For you, nothing has changed.
And I want to be cool with everything that is happening
and I want to be strong. I want to tell people that I never had feelings for you. I want to smile and shrug my shoulders.
I suppose I will learn
how to look away when you kiss her, and I will learn to push you away slowly. I will learn. I have to learn.