Pain, that's the most vivid memory, I relive it every night.
The fear, the fury, but most of all the pain.
He broke me, I can never let it go.
Some nights it's just flashes.
But others it's like I'm still there.
I can feel his grip around my neck.
I remember how I screamed.
How I clawed at his hand for him to free me, how I begged him to let me go.
I remember when everything went black.
Waking up to him inside me, the feeling of disgust.
When the pain rushed over me I was too numb to feel it.
I can still feel his hot breathe on my face, it smelled of cigarettes and beer.
I still feel his filthy hands on me.
I remember wanting to die, so I wouldnt have to live with what he did.
But he was too much of a coward to kill someone begging for death.
Every night I see his face, there is nowhere to escape to.
So when night falls I try my best to stay awake, because in my dreams I'm never safe.