Do you ever just wonder "damn if I would have done the slightest change my life would be different right now."
I think about it all the time.
Like in relationships. I think well if I was stronger and I would have left I never would have been abused.
Maybe if I saw my self-worth earlier I wouldn't have been co-dependent on people who never cared about me.
Maybe if I never would have filled out that job application I never would have got those jobs.
Maybe I may have never met those co-workers people.
If I didn't make all those decisions what would my life look like?
Would I be miserable?
Would I be happier?
Where would I be at in my life?
Would I be super stressed out like I am now?
Sometimes I know the changes I would have made back then. I just wonder what my life would look like now.
I can only imagine all of the what ifs.