I don't know why, but I love and hate becoming attached to others.
I love it because you can connect on another level that maybe you can't do with someone else. Once you feel connected it is the best feeling ever almost like you feel untouchable.
It is also the worst feeling ever because for one nothing lasts forever. Secondly if something ends up happening or separating the connection or bond you begin to feel sad. It is hard to trust and rely on another individual due to the separation .
It almost feels like broken promises or something that is too good to be true.
I love/hate growing attached because all of the emotions that follow.
I feel like someone always comes into my life and then I feel happy. The next thing I know they drop me, things don't work out, moving out of state, or they end up dying and leaving out of my life.
I'm tired of being vulnerable to people.
These days it's hard to keep a good relationship.
I have separation anxiety because everyone just leaves.
I hate being attached because I am the one left hurt.