It feels like everything around me is crumbling.
I feel like if it isn't one thing that is falling apart, there is something following shortly behind.
I feel cursed like every bad thing is happening to me and I cannot seem to catch a break.
There are not enough tears to cry, there doesn't seem like enough time to heal, and it feels like no matter what the depression takes over every inch of life I have left.
It is hard getting out of bed and finding motivation to put one foot in front of the other.
Everytime I think, I zone out and I feel so numb.
I don't feel worth it most days, and it is hard to look in the mirror.
It is hard to look into my own eyes , my own body, my everything knowing that I have caused myself all this pain.
When will the light shine through the darkness again?
When will I smile again?
When will I be happy and have peace in my heart, mind, and soul?
Each day I pray for some change. I pray that God blesses me with what I deserve whatever that may be.
I am at rock bottom and hopefully I can only go up from here.