If only you knew about how many times in a day you cross my mind you would understand...
If only you saw the tears I've cried from the people who hurt me and sometimes just wishing you were there to comfort me because you understand you know my life.
If only you saw the smiles on my face from the things you say or the way you make me feel then maybe you would understand....
If only you knew the cravings and feelings I have for you, but I keep them hidden it's for a reason and I know you understand.
If only you knew that I love and care for you deeply even though I know that we can never be together.
If only you could see my feelings for you that cannot admit to.
If only you knew there is no way of getting over you then you would know.
I talk about you and how much I miss you, but I know we can't be together. I tell others about you and how perfect you were and each time I cry about it. You will never know what you mean to me.
I am happy for you and this next chapter in your life. I know I won't hear from you, I know you will move on and you deserve the best. I am happy if you are happy even without me. I will always have a special place in my heart for you with love and care. I know you never knew all of these things, but now you know. You are something special in my life.
Now I have to let you go... so you can move on and be free. I care for you, I have love for you, and God Bless.