If it's not one thing it is another it always seems.
If I do something nice i get slapped in the face with bad news.
Finally when I accept the news something else seems to pop up.
Things like bills, medical bills, being charged for procedures I'm not supposed to, dealing with work and all the chaos in between, balancing out school work, my internship, and life.
For me the world keeps spinning even when I tend to fall and decide to lay there and not get up.
I'm tired. I'm tired of the physical pain. I'm exhausted mentally. I miss the people in my life who have passed away. I miss my love the one who got away my always forever soulmate. I miss someone else the one that could have been, but not sure what is in it for the both of us ever. I miss letting myself heal and letting myself grow.
Right now if it isn't one thing it's another.
The world seems to be crashing down so often it feels normal.
The days seem longer than 24 hours feeling dark and gloomy.
Some days the depression feels like somebody died when in reality nobody died it is just the deep ugly feelings inside my chest.
I am becoming uninterested in life and less motivated.
Losing my appetite and just want to lay in bed and get some actual rest.
If it's not one thing it is another, but I am doing the best to cope.
Maybe a change is needed like chopping off my hair, getting new clothes, going to a movie, going out alone, spoiling me.
Maybe trying to find positive support and vibes so these one thing after another situations won't feel so bad.