My Heartaches

I miss things that warm my heart

Things that make me smile and laugh

Simply enjoy the present

That's why when I finally have it my heartaches

I've been quietly craving it so much

That when I have it, I finally feel filled

I feel happy and complete

Even though I didn't realise I lacked it

I didn't realise how empty I was until I was full

I didn't realise how much depth there was within me until something filled it to the brim

From freedom to solitude, I crave it all

Most importantly I wish to be loved

But this only reminds me of such a disappointment I am,

How stupid I can be, and generally the reasons why I'm not loved now

The reasons why I was never filled to the rim

Only causing my heart to ache even more