It can get very frustrating to have to wait. Bet you didn’t know that, huh? (LOL) We live in a society that has taught us about instant gratification.
We want it now! We don’t practice the fine art of patience anymore. I say “art” because it truly is an art. It is not easy to sit back and allow things to happen in their own time.
Especially if you are a control freak like myself. I am getting better on a daily basis, but it has not been an easy road.
I believe that the need to control things stems from fear; fear that comes from perhaps insecurity?
We often question ourselves and as to whether we are needed enough by others. Nobody wants to feel disposable, dispensable, or expendable.
Some of us have even felt like the world would be better off without us at times.
When we have wreaked havoc in our lives and others lives, through our erratic behavior due either to our mental condition, or drug addiction or just being an overall jerk from time to time.
Whatever, the motive behind our ridiculousness, the outcome is much the same. People get tired of our escapades! The inconsistency, the drama, it is all-hard to deal with.
We alienate our friends, our spouses or family.
When we begin to reform and become more stable and feel better about ourselves knowing we are on the right path, it is amazing.
We begin to trust ourselves much more; we believe that as evident as we feel the transformation is (and it may be). Everyone may not have gotten the memo yet.
The people that we have disappointed in the past are wary. They don’t want to get their hopes up. (Just in case we mess up.) Do you really blame them?
Don’t get discouraged. Time heals all wounds! We have to be patient with the process. Don’t get bitter (yes, I’m talking to you) about their being skeptical.
They are healing just like you are. In the meantime, I have found that service work is a gratifying and positive way. It helps the community and it fosters the sense of being needed.
I urge you to contact the local shelter, the Veterans’ Center, the library or the 211-care line. There is always a need for caring people who are willing to help.
Know that you are on the right path and keep on keeping on. It may take a while, smile and know it gets better. I promise. Do your part and the other things in life begin to come together.
Deep Breath!! Good Job!!