{"count":17279,"next":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=717&tag=sad","previous":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=715&tag=sad","results":[{"id":"a9a1c61f-17ea-437b-a732-dcdc8da7e53e","reaction_count":5,"reaction_counts":{"NI":5,"all":5,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"livingghost","author_description":"Definitely not a writer","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\n\n\n\n\n                           Fantasy                          ","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e543d012-85c1-f804-9025-0d565221b84e-1538855934326.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_e543d012-85c1-f804-9025-0d565221b84e-1538855934326.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_e543d012-85c1-f804-9025-0d565221b84e-1538855934326.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e543d012-85c1-f804-9025-0d565221b84e-1538855934326.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0e5224cd-5c66-0953-c868-0643595c86a8-1519684155999.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"livingghost","id":"ea6fed25-03a0-4827-a7e0-41186bf0bbed","nickname":"Sasha","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0e5224cd-5c66-0953-c868-0643595c86a8-1519684155999.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0e5224cd-5c66-0953-c868-0643595c86a8-1519684155999.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/bcf8446b-d95f-9115-80cf-1d40ad68cbab-1531490895189.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_bcf8446b-d95f-9115-80cf-1d40ad68cbab-1531490895189.png","description":"Definitely not a writer","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":5,"story_count":60,"reaction_count":179,"following_count":13,"follower_count":1556,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":124371,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["melancholic","age gap","sad","romance","crush","love","feelings","thoughts","fantasy","boy","older","relationship"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-09-07T16:53:04.505151-07:00","created":"2018-10-06T12:46:45.473088-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\n\n\n\n\n                           Fantasy                          ","description":"A quick little thing about a love fantasy","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e543d012-85c1-f804-9025-0d565221b84e-1538855934326.png","slug":"fantasy","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-06T13:03:06.261370-07:00","published":"2018-10-06T13:03:06.261360-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":90,"comment_count":6,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"ea6fed25-03a0-4827-a7e0-41186bf0bbed","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"ec5bce25-e798-4ec3-88c6-7cadf045c61f","reaction_count":2,"reaction_counts":{"NI":2,"all":2,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"mackenzieashlyn","author_description":"|| Poetry ||","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Take a Bow","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538672074509-c5653fa3ee30?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4a33403b5c60814115464468afb1b63e","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538672074509-c5653fa3ee30?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=05e34e92cfe5edb72a17e9d943e026bb","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538672074509-c5653fa3ee30?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=54a9c8776f51c513e368ed49b1390c0d","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538672074509-c5653fa3ee30?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4a33403b5c60814115464468afb1b63e"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/3622d680-db34-447a-ba36-ac18ada9066f-compressed1538021774595.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"mackenzieashlyn","id":"1d08c372-3ef8-4143-b50e-0a20a5ffdb8a","nickname":"Mackenzie","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/3622d680-db34-447a-ba36-ac18ada9066f-compressed1538021774595.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/e905e16a-259c-42c0-9179-7244e05d765b-compressed1538021725615.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"|| Poetry ||","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":0,"follower_count":2,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:08:06.045405-08:00","created":"2018-10-06T08:17:24.814958-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Take a Bow","description":"Mistakes are lead role while your greatest achievements become the failed audition you won’t remember \n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538672074509-c5653fa3ee30?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4a33403b5c60814115464468afb1b63e","slug":"take-a-bow","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-06T08:18:51.176313-07:00","published":"2018-10-06T08:18:51.176302-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":13,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"1d08c372-3ef8-4143-b50e-0a20a5ffdb8a","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"a77359cb-bab2-4eba-8001-2b56188658ac","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"dailycontrition","author_description":"i just want to get my writing out there.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"currupter.","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1510936111840-65e151ad71bb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=463648175e42fed6bd529f7ce8533355","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1510936111840-65e151ad71bb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=e2ae71d54ab2f2c9af0eec25f9b73755","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1510936111840-65e151ad71bb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=02041bb83dba90c9a799205d00ad9bf9","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1510936111840-65e151ad71bb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=463648175e42fed6bd529f7ce8533355"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b2409aa8-b4e0-590d-51a1-a434b2a68cba-1538778967968.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"dailycontrition","id":"1778e683-36c2-4cc4-894f-c273c700f8dd","nickname":"h. f. lapeste","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b2409aa8-b4e0-590d-51a1-a434b2a68cba-1538778967968.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_b2409aa8-b4e0-590d-51a1-a434b2a68cba-1538778967968.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/8abb233a-1aad-8e8a-481a-25cd1efa9cbd-1538778881088.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_8abb233a-1aad-8e8a-481a-25cd1efa9cbd-1538778881088.png","description":"i just want to get my writing out there.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":3,"following_count":1,"follower_count":1,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","deep","truth","poetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-12-29T18:58:34.188066-08:00","created":"2018-10-05T15:38:55.308573-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"currupter.","description":"Paratroopers fall from my closed eyes like tears of ink\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1510936111840-65e151ad71bb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=463648175e42fed6bd529f7ce8533355","slug":"currupter","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-05T18:36:47.004903-07:00","published":"2018-10-05T18:36:47.004887-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":5,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"1778e683-36c2-4cc4-894f-c273c700f8dd","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"7ea15438-e431-40e7-8406-649eb83b464f","reaction_count":2,"reaction_counts":{"NI":1,"all":1,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"fwinterroses","author_description":"raging bisexual | ig: @fallingwinterrose","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"poisoned hearts","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1513602614830-2b3a9b6dfaeb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=708ac893ce518f4e02f6921c7c36c9d4","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1513602614830-2b3a9b6dfaeb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=77b6ec5f79ad6ab080ddad94bc00fb84","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1513602614830-2b3a9b6dfaeb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=279ce28f49ebf6084afd53c36a762d43","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1513602614830-2b3a9b6dfaeb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=708ac893ce518f4e02f6921c7c36c9d4"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/abc6e885-32d0-88f9-4614-c3cf9040c786-1536785363415.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"fwinterroses","id":"5ac1107e-1bd7-4c13-a3a0-70b847f456ad","nickname":"f.w. rose 🏳️‍🌈","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/abc6e885-32d0-88f9-4614-c3cf9040c786-1536785363415.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_abc6e885-32d0-88f9-4614-c3cf9040c786-1536785363415.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3e2dc0e0-15db-5231-1582-df24d8edc5ff-1522854956901.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_3e2dc0e0-15db-5231-1582-df24d8edc5ff-1522854956901.jpeg","description":"raging bisexual | ig: @fallingwinterrose","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":2,"story_count":62,"reaction_count":332,"following_count":99,"follower_count":505,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":46299,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","romance","fwrwritober2018","love","haiku","tragic","broken hearts","angst","grief","poetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-04-04T07:29:14.708177-07:00","created":"2018-10-05T17:04:54.279315-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"poisoned hearts","description":"all your poision: and still, i crave more / FWR Writober 2018, day 5","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1513602614830-2b3a9b6dfaeb?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=708ac893ce518f4e02f6921c7c36c9d4","slug":"poisoned-hearts","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-05T17:09:01.132511-07:00","published":"2018-10-05T17:09:01.132498-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":66,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"5ac1107e-1bd7-4c13-a3a0-70b847f456ad","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"30138f37-5588-4c29-8b43-45571c2e0d6e","reaction_count":4,"reaction_counts":{"NI":4,"all":4,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"eachbeat","author_description":"when I need to write something..","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Each Beat","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1535615615570-3b839f4359be?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a6a9f52c98cfc9b9fe0a81f47cfe7dce","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1535615615570-3b839f4359be?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=8be6cdf04df9675dc0ee2f6dae3a3ec8","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1535615615570-3b839f4359be?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=7f6339a37f21ca83cd94765ceed0ccb1","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1535615615570-3b839f4359be?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a6a9f52c98cfc9b9fe0a81f47cfe7dce"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/c2cf2f6f-8f54-c00b-fd16-4650aeb21e54-1538769928326.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"eachbeat","id":"c37a2cd0-b1ce-41c8-9e9f-dc9a1197ff86","nickname":"eachbeat","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/c2cf2f6f-8f54-c00b-fd16-4650aeb21e54-1538769928326.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_c2cf2f6f-8f54-c00b-fd16-4650aeb21e54-1538769928326.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/e917447d-8735-147a-0702-3d62a36b05ae-1538769841344.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_e917447d-8735-147a-0702-3d62a36b05ae-1538769841344.jpeg","description":"when I need to write something..","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":6,"follower_count":5,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","inner work","loneliness","feelings","spiritual","heart beats","grief","lost","heart","self reflection"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:09:48.633035-08:00","created":"2018-10-05T12:59:31.374523-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Each Beat","description":"When was the last time you listened to your heart?","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1535615615570-3b839f4359be?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a6a9f52c98cfc9b9fe0a81f47cfe7dce","slug":"each-beat","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-05T13:01:33.353619-07:00","published":"2018-10-05T13:01:33.353609-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":3,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"c37a2cd0-b1ce-41c8-9e9f-dc9a1197ff86","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"5e14c656-7013-42d1-bf66-7e5b0bfebd56","reaction_count":1,"reaction_counts":{"NI":1,"all":1,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"anxiety","author_description":"feelings","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"it's sad nobody ever knows how much someone is actually hurting","first_page_image":"https://i.imgur.com/gA8KJhO.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://i.imgur.com/rejwm0Z.jpg","m":null,"l":"https://i.imgur.com/gA8KJhO.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0c12e40e-9bdb-99f5-70c9-ebc3d53e51ce-1518950375523.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"anxiety","id":"1c428ac2-8ae4-4cb9-9e26-dceb73f75927","nickname":"Anxiety","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0c12e40e-9bdb-99f5-70c9-ebc3d53e51ce-1518950375523.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0c12e40e-9bdb-99f5-70c9-ebc3d53e51ce-1518950375523.png","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"feelings","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":102,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":0,"follower_count":62,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":110,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["knows","sad","emotions","anxiety","relatable","emotional","feelings","broken","hurting","thoughts","life","depression","girl"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-11-05T13:30:15.750308-08:00","created":"2018-10-05T11:06:32.198579-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"it's sad nobody ever knows how much someone is actually hurting","description":"","thumbnail":"https://i.imgur.com/gA8KJhO.png","slug":"its-sad-nobody-ever-knows-how-much-someone-is-ac-3","categories":[],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-05T11:06:32.198290-07:00","published":"2018-10-05T11:06:32.198278-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":16,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"1c428ac2-8ae4-4cb9-9e26-dceb73f75927","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"9d31b829-3dd1-4155-ac1f-b6ff54ad80c5","reaction_count":32,"reaction_counts":{"NI":32,"all":32,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kassaundrachur1","author_description":"Hurt has a Heart in the form of words.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"No Choice","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/eaca30cd-1c60-46e3-0076-7bb345edc312-1538675931516.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_eaca30cd-1c60-46e3-0076-7bb345edc312-1538675931516.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_eaca30cd-1c60-46e3-0076-7bb345edc312-1538675931516.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/eaca30cd-1c60-46e3-0076-7bb345edc312-1538675931516.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/772c64d7-faaf-4b9f-8e09-a4d85d83c6e1-compressed1570833376088.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kassaundrachur1","id":"b159ef06-75c5-4053-9c98-098b1faab98a","nickname":"BeautifullyScarred","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/772c64d7-faaf-4b9f-8e09-a4d85d83c6e1-compressed1570833376088.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/profile_picture_default_36.jpeg","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/2413df6c-772d-4f61-9b66-734e8f37cfef-compressed1570833442771.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"Hurt has a Heart in the form of words.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":74,"reaction_count":4,"following_count":49,"follower_count":398,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":40061,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","family","anxiety","self harm","tears","feelings","thoughts","depression","crying","suicide","help","sexual assault","18+","poetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-09-13T20:01:19.555089-07:00","created":"2018-10-04T10:57:44.052484-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"No Choice","description":"I WAS a little girl full of life ....Not anymore\n\ndisclaimer: ANY AND ALL HATE COMMENTS WILL BE REMOVED AND USER BLOCKED this took a lot to post","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/eaca30cd-1c60-46e3-0076-7bb345edc312-1538675931516.png","slug":"no-choice","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-05T10:40:15.693794-07:00","published":"2018-10-05T10:40:15.693783-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":792,"comment_count":3,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"b159ef06-75c5-4053-9c98-098b1faab98a","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"75915b9a-5d81-45ea-b3a0-a21a6a336385","reaction_count":62,"reaction_counts":{"NI":60,"all":60,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"mipoet","author_description":"Insomniac","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Sorrows","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1534775354438-5773652cd5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=738c2b8b104f2c3c7bbdbe53c1610859","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1534775354438-5773652cd5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=026c6a45584c1a66f9edd8b47c3c43a6","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1534775354438-5773652cd5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4da65ed82d51a6ffa950aaea0e9c5f5e","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1534775354438-5773652cd5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=738c2b8b104f2c3c7bbdbe53c1610859"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"mipoet","id":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","nickname":"Joshua","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","description":"Insomniac","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":27,"story_count":609,"reaction_count":986,"following_count":185,"follower_count":20684,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":134947,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","str","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","emotions","anxiety","alone","hurt","sorrow","feelings","lonliness","depression","sadness","poetry","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-06-13T07:19:06.781246-07:00","created":"2018-10-04T21:49:17.108183-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Sorrows","description":"The rain comes down in steady thudding. A lone sunbeam pierces through the thick gray clouds.\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1534775354438-5773652cd5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=738c2b8b104f2c3c7bbdbe53c1610859","slug":"sorrows","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-04T21:51:47.351284-07:00","published":"2018-10-04T21:51:47.351273-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":71,"comment_count":4,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"5b054b22-a124-41d1-a386-5c00436568fd","reaction_count":4,"reaction_counts":{"NI":4,"all":4,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"_caprialex","author_description":"Writing for fun and to vent sometimes","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"But he wasn't","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1498568311058-50a049aed5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=65aa5a33e8f60d1d4b8fac690dafad59","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1498568311058-50a049aed5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=5c67936f649ab1f83bafa3170712d857","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1498568311058-50a049aed5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=2dc966b103631e6aa379abfbdb82a9e7","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1498568311058-50a049aed5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=65aa5a33e8f60d1d4b8fac690dafad59"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b607fa70-bb98-f49d-543a-e874c564e476-1538681819956.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"_caprialex","id":"e7e02394-9845-4740-93b1-fb4e11029e91","nickname":"Alex~","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b607fa70-bb98-f49d-543a-e874c564e476-1538681819956.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_b607fa70-bb98-f49d-543a-e874c564e476-1538681819956.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/56e98ab7-c06c-7aaf-fd99-94f393f3e762-1538681830594.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_56e98ab7-c06c-7aaf-fd99-94f393f3e762-1538681830594.jpeg","description":"Writing for fun and to vent sometimes","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":13,"follower_count":4,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","hanahaki disease","romance","unreciprocated love","love","death","feelings","vent","rejection"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:39:54.940323-08:00","created":"2018-10-04T12:38:27.925209-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"But he wasn't","description":"“Death has always been so ironically pretty.”, my husky voice whispered, nothing more than a whisk anymore. ","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1498568311058-50a049aed5a6?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=65aa5a33e8f60d1d4b8fac690dafad59","slug":"but-he-wasnt","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-04T12:44:44.656930-07:00","published":"2018-10-04T12:44:44.656917-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":382,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e7e02394-9845-4740-93b1-fb4e11029e91","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"696ab571-2a8d-43c6-b15f-99d452862c0d","reaction_count":19,"reaction_counts":{"NI":18,"all":18,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"lonelygirl","author_description":"just a gal writing what she can","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Time Keeps Ticking","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1536662788222-6927ce05daea?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=3361d1bb19b0e0992ad7f3263eef7d14","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1536662788222-6927ce05daea?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=79a539661350db68feb254d0b160841b","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1536662788222-6927ce05daea?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=0bd19551e32af65f2247e76eb68cf013","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1536662788222-6927ce05daea?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=3361d1bb19b0e0992ad7f3263eef7d14"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/90516f04-42e1-aec0-49ad-907ad9ed101f-1519056911974.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"lonelygirl","id":"249a3634-269b-4f62-85e2-9d8cb87a2db1","nickname":"Kenz","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/90516f04-42e1-aec0-49ad-907ad9ed101f-1519056911974.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_90516f04-42e1-aec0-49ad-907ad9ed101f-1519056911974.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/08fa11f4-b65b-b08b-6b74-67188036b6d3-1519056836537.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_08fa11f4-b65b-b08b-6b74-67188036b6d3-1519056836537.jpeg","description":"just a gal writing what she can","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":7,"story_count":25,"reaction_count":79,"following_count":41,"follower_count":1679,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":36710,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","romance","emotions","love","hurt","feelings","relationship"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-12-21T14:39:05.382884-08:00","created":"2018-10-04T07:25:30.697663-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Time Keeps Ticking","description":"back with some emotional musings\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1536662788222-6927ce05daea?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=3361d1bb19b0e0992ad7f3263eef7d14","slug":"time-keeps-ticking","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-04T07:33:35.355729-07:00","published":"2018-10-04T07:33:35.355719-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":359,"comment_count":5,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"249a3634-269b-4f62-85e2-9d8cb87a2db1","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"9412dd53-e147-4296-8806-d12ef10e4c31","reaction_count":7,"reaction_counts":{"NI":7,"all":7,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"captainamiraca","author_description":"I'm an aspiring writer, I hope you enjoy","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"A Love Letter From Death ","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/14a6924f-9a7e-27ed-86d2-309fb9b1d769-1538612809317.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_14a6924f-9a7e-27ed-86d2-309fb9b1d769-1538612809317.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_14a6924f-9a7e-27ed-86d2-309fb9b1d769-1538612809317.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/14a6924f-9a7e-27ed-86d2-309fb9b1d769-1538612809317.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/fce8b0ad-7b1b-43ef-bce2-1ca8f2a9fa00-compressed1538618998089.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"captainamiraca","id":"22ccc703-a015-4771-bf48-7fb235642c00","nickname":"Amira","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/fce8b0ad-7b1b-43ef-bce2-1ca8f2a9fa00-compressed1538618998089.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_bf82f98d-671b-7fe7-7108-5ea8d7ff79a6-1538609341046.jpeg","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/c68bcd6e-30ad-4646-be0b-bd57120fc464-compressed1538619014611.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_4929c9f0-16fe-651f-9248-2bb5151fa717-1538609406099.jpeg","description":"I'm an aspiring writer, I hope you enjoy","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":14,"reaction_count":5,"following_count":7,"follower_count":343,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1913,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","romance","skeltons","love","halloween","spooky"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-10-15T20:33:44.552574-07:00","created":"2018-10-03T17:24:23.832750-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"A Love Letter From Death ","description":" An appreciation letter from a lover to their love. ","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/14a6924f-9a7e-27ed-86d2-309fb9b1d769-1538612809317.jpeg","slug":"a-love-letter-from-death","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-03T17:32:23.181652-07:00","published":"2018-10-03T17:32:23.181642-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":15,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"22ccc703-a015-4771-bf48-7fb235642c00","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"f200a232-39a1-46aa-9e58-c65fc7747804","reaction_count":3,"reaction_counts":{"NI":3,"all":3,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"molliundrea","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Whatever happens- happens, take it day by day \n\nYes I know you want me, but only half way \n\n\n                    \n\n                    You take all of the benefit\n\n                 And leave no commitment,","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538436125468-ca166c2c669f?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=dcbdffcc563cf528c58bcf407aec07a0","first_page_images":{"s":"","m":"","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538436125468-ca166c2c669f?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=dcbdffcc563cf528c58bcf407aec07a0"},"author_profile_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"molliundrea","id":"2b9fb17a-32ed-4bd0-a745-c9a464cab473","nickname":"Mollie","profile_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":2,"reaction_count":2,"following_count":31,"follower_count":13,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":532,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poems","sex","sad","romance","worthy","writting","toxic","love","breakup","feelings","unworthy","thoughts","lust","relationship","poetry","heartbreak","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:04:38.957498-08:00","created":"2018-10-03T09:47:39.168478-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Whatever happens- happens, take it day by day \n\nYes I know you want me, but only half way \n\n\n                    \n\n                    You take all of the benefit\n\n                 And leave no commitment,","description":"(Un)worthy love","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538436125468-ca166c2c669f?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=dcbdffcc563cf528c58bcf407aec07a0","slug":"whatever-happens--happens-take-it-day-by-day-yes","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-03T10:04:43.305534-07:00","published":"2018-10-03T10:04:43.305523-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":16,"comment_count":0,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"2b9fb17a-32ed-4bd0-a745-c9a464cab473","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"8c4c1a20-76ac-440c-b432-90aa53cc4234","reaction_count":73,"reaction_counts":{"NI":71,"all":71,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"mipoet","author_description":"Insomniac","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Life of Lies","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1532938911079-1b06ac7ceec7?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=8f682265ab4825b70910e8929f2a0b90","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1532938911079-1b06ac7ceec7?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=cc7ef6ca50c8ef3d2326c1d440b1d112","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1532938911079-1b06ac7ceec7?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=e822bfe23ff76a370f3ebc2f932b375e","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1532938911079-1b06ac7ceec7?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=8f682265ab4825b70910e8929f2a0b90"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"mipoet","id":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","nickname":"Joshua","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","description":"Insomniac","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":27,"story_count":609,"reaction_count":986,"following_count":185,"follower_count":20684,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":134947,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","str","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","emotions","anxiety","masochism","self harm","hurt","feelings","hurting","rhyming","depression","anger","sadness","emotion","poetry","rhyme","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-03-14T04:14:25.632551-07:00","created":"2018-10-03T06:28:55.727242-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Life of Lies","description":"Blood screams for release. Tears strain to come out.\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1532938911079-1b06ac7ceec7?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=8f682265ab4825b70910e8929f2a0b90","slug":"life-of-lies","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-03T06:31:33.292891-07:00","published":"2018-10-03T06:31:33.292880-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":13,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"3abb3cb8-4b6a-4922-99fc-05a8e4f9a935","reaction_count":2,"reaction_counts":{"NI":2,"all":2,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kaya","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Last memory.","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521684671152-fa70aacf7fbc?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=b1b98734bf4a847280221404e3168414","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521684671152-fa70aacf7fbc?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=5e4445524b8ed08449f9f8b077b88132","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521684671152-fa70aacf7fbc?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=965c58246d0394b419964a2365fac598","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521684671152-fa70aacf7fbc?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=b1b98734bf4a847280221404e3168414"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b655306a-2fb1-2892-9f0d-10bfa6381b14-1538510392468.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kaya","id":"e015546f-6d12-4875-9d7f-2e66acf5c27b","nickname":"Kaya","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b655306a-2fb1-2892-9f0d-10bfa6381b14-1538510392468.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_b655306a-2fb1-2892-9f0d-10bfa6381b14-1538510392468.jpeg","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":1,"story_count":2,"reaction_count":2,"following_count":8,"follower_count":12,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1060,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","romance","death","breakup","feelings","fall"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:32:25.746416-08:00","created":"2018-10-02T13:04:05.398548-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Last memory.","description":"It was a windy day. Suddenly, as I walked below the yellow leaves down the empty road, I remembered that December. Our memories came back running through my mind. I could no longer see where I was going. All I saw was your image; that day when we felt like the only two people on this earth. The day we promised to stay together forever.\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521684671152-fa70aacf7fbc?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=b1b98734bf4a847280221404e3168414","slug":"last-memory","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-02T13:07:42.702619-07:00","published":"2018-10-02T13:07:42.702598-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":13,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e015546f-6d12-4875-9d7f-2e66acf5c27b","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"7200f8bf-cf23-4bbf-b5ab-73296547f34c","reaction_count":10,"reaction_counts":{"NI":10,"all":10,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"sax","author_description":"Fiction is merely truth within the lie.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Pain","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/99f540c3-46e1-426c-cbf9-e7b99bf97100-1538506423303.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_99f540c3-46e1-426c-cbf9-e7b99bf97100-1538506423303.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_99f540c3-46e1-426c-cbf9-e7b99bf97100-1538506423303.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/99f540c3-46e1-426c-cbf9-e7b99bf97100-1538506423303.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/30280436-9ed5-573a-f70e-cc76dff652e1-1537331566918.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"sax","id":"1cb649bb-b3f5-47ef-b189-e09a444c5112","nickname":"Jonathan","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/30280436-9ed5-573a-f70e-cc76dff652e1-1537331566918.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_30280436-9ed5-573a-f70e-cc76dff652e1-1537331566918.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/06867e35-3f85-c178-7178-659fa07dc296-1537331552367.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_06867e35-3f85-c178-7178-659fa07dc296-1537331552367.jpeg","description":"Fiction is merely truth within the lie.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":10,"reaction_count":14,"following_count":47,"follower_count":298,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1689,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["note","october","pain","sad","passion","strong","painful","scarred","warning","feeling","run","emotional","love","hurt","smile","feelings","strength","walk","halloween","hopeless","trigger","horror","evil","happy","boy","cry","personal","scared","relationship","girl","letter","faith","commaful"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-12-22T05:29:39.540822-08:00","created":"2018-10-02T11:30:57.856400-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Pain","description":"In my life I have been dealing with a debilitating pain that has left me feeling physically compromised. This is a personal note I have written to pain to let it be known that it will no longer break me down.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/99f540c3-46e1-426c-cbf9-e7b99bf97100-1538506423303.jpeg","slug":"pain","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-02T12:02:14.054436-07:00","published":"2018-10-02T12:02:14.054427-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":47,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"1cb649bb-b3f5-47ef-b189-e09a444c5112","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"c248bd31-c90f-4465-af64-608f26cd49e5","reaction_count":3,"reaction_counts":{"NI":3,"all":3,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kyuqlat","author_description":"Just a girl with big dreams","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Would you push me away\nIf I asked you to stay?\n\n","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/blurred/sunrise110.jpg","first_page_images":{"s":"","m":"","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/blurred/sunrise110.jpg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/94F6C4FE-DE13-4A0B-A742-8A1949E5E8351538459619080.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kyuqlat","id":"e9e2d8d4-a944-428e-a499-9b68386e279a","nickname":"rin","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/94F6C4FE-DE13-4A0B-A742-8A1949E5E8351538459619080.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/owl-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/D1F3D6D6-CDE0-4872-809B-E16BE77636E21538459643292.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"Just a girl with big dreams","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":3,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":25,"follower_count":19,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","inspiration","past","love","nostalgia","thoughts","dreams","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:14:49.916585-08:00","created":"2018-10-02T10:51:47.205659-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Would you push me away\nIf I asked you to stay?\n\n","description":"Poem of the past, poem of my thoughts, poem of the never ending plots...of what is known as my mind.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/blurred/sunrise110.jpg","slug":"would-you-push-me-awayif-i-asked-you-to-stay","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-02T11:13:25.936742-07:00","published":"2018-10-02T11:13:25.936732-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":34,"comment_count":0,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e9e2d8d4-a944-428e-a499-9b68386e279a","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"db6fad2d-db4e-4556-8721-b7ab972caaa6","reaction_count":13,"reaction_counts":{"NI":13,"all":13,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"emycah12","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Too Many. ","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538378074344-e99d014109db?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4c64bfe2fdfd64a53187d0294b4525b3","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538378074344-e99d014109db?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=c991a948bfac46fc05f2fc011fb6d73d","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538378074344-e99d014109db?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=ce5798732104ef04e4ff80f643b5b93e","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538378074344-e99d014109db?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4c64bfe2fdfd64a53187d0294b4525b3"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/6a5ec39b-2bc5-24cc-75ef-d3cbb8d8faaf-1516939469584.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"emycah12","id":"cf8e244d-1219-40b3-8a27-14d209a17db4","nickname":"Mycah","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/6a5ec39b-2bc5-24cc-75ef-d3cbb8d8faaf-1516939469584.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_6a5ec39b-2bc5-24cc-75ef-d3cbb8d8faaf-1516939469584.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/1012813b-cb16-d61b-c893-8ad64893cf9b-1516939495115.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_1012813b-cb16-d61b-c893-8ad64893cf9b-1516939495115.jpeg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":25,"reaction_count":67,"following_count":31,"follower_count":27,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":35718,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","uncertain","short","love","feelings","thoughts","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:04:25.491136-08:00","created":"2018-10-01T17:58:46.328532-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Too Many. ","description":"too many flaws. \n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1538378074344-e99d014109db?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=4c64bfe2fdfd64a53187d0294b4525b3","slug":"too-many","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-01T18:06:01.319528-07:00","published":"2018-10-01T18:06:01.319518-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":61,"comment_count":4,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"cf8e244d-1219-40b3-8a27-14d209a17db4","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"503e8f61-683a-45f0-955f-3b30eeaa380c","reaction_count":15,"reaction_counts":{"NI":14,"all":14,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"alexmoncada","author_description":"a wanderer, a one night stand","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"And I swear to myself that \nI am over you,","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1523821741446-edb2b68bb7a0?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a8ee632e2bad98065991348c909a6cfb","first_page_images":{"s":"","m":"","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1523821741446-edb2b68bb7a0?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a8ee632e2bad98065991348c909a6cfb"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/0F604E40-A8BE-4923-83AA-57A67383A8C21538370999341.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"alexmoncada","id":"43ee7de8-8efc-4d91-a4f2-2fd02843fddc","nickname":"Alex","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/0F604E40-A8BE-4923-83AA-57A67383A8C21538370999341.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/owl-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/61FD2E5E-12A9-4B3A-AC04-BFE7868A02901538370551169.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"a wanderer, a one night stand","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":3,"following_count":29,"follower_count":10,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":0,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","love","broken","maybe one day","still not over you"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2019-01-08T04:00:21.224067-08:00","created":"2018-10-01T17:45:39.626441-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"And I swear to myself that \nI am over you,","description":"Thoughts that keep creeping back. ","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1523821741446-edb2b68bb7a0?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=a8ee632e2bad98065991348c909a6cfb","slug":"and-i-swear-to-myself-that-i-am-over-you","categories":["RM"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-01T17:56:32.584355-07:00","published":"2018-10-01T17:56:32.584344-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":3,"comment_count":0,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"43ee7de8-8efc-4d91-a4f2-2fd02843fddc","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"37fb1d0a-75b0-4ee2-a0ee-10ec7f33ceec","reaction_count":2,"reaction_counts":{"NI":2,"all":2,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"deathpunk187","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Hold Me","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1517346665566-17b938c7f3ad?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=ff96cad0d7043f34322d1f6f210fa6c9","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1517346665566-17b938c7f3ad?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=402c114e80d3c4170616ed6ef7045d07","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1517346665566-17b938c7f3ad?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=069d05a8380736752a798f7c34695dd6","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1517346665566-17b938c7f3ad?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=ff96cad0d7043f34322d1f6f210fa6c9"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/a1b33438-2962-08e6-73cc-52bcf495c8a5-1533370104025.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"deathpunk187","id":"592097f0-38b1-4983-853a-b819f23a228b","nickname":"_______________________","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/a1b33438-2962-08e6-73cc-52bcf495c8a5-1533370104025.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_a1b33438-2962-08e6-73cc-52bcf495c8a5-1533370104025.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/42970c80-21a0-a47f-467d-ccfe399a5e07-1533370116851.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_42970c80-21a0-a47f-467d-ccfe399a5e07-1533370116851.png","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":16,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":0,"follower_count":11,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2744,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","bleak","depression","poetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:13:41.422722-08:00","created":"2018-10-01T15:17:13.950959-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Hold Me","description":"just hold me...","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1517346665566-17b938c7f3ad?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=ff96cad0d7043f34322d1f6f210fa6c9","slug":"hold-me","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-01T15:24:14.769798-07:00","published":"2018-10-01T15:24:14.769788-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":7,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"592097f0-38b1-4983-853a-b819f23a228b","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"96aa7ea3-34de-494c-a81b-74cfb8fda080","reaction_count":63,"reaction_counts":{"NI":61,"all":61,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"mipoet","author_description":"Insomniac","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Whispers","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521224903240-8118a07f4d56?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=0b0e1b727876d03a20fa0e63ba3e9870","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521224903240-8118a07f4d56?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=ded8db3c5fcba7407e14503775d13d3d","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521224903240-8118a07f4d56?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=bc1920fcecaaec580679c9853c309fc5","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521224903240-8118a07f4d56?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=0b0e1b727876d03a20fa0e63ba3e9870"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"mipoet","id":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","nickname":"Joshua","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_3431fc32-5157-9007-23a4-54c7b5cc205d-1617086858919.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_880d29fc-edb7-f724-87c7-76477ecba80a-1569152806883.jpeg","description":"Insomniac","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":27,"story_count":609,"reaction_count":986,"following_count":185,"follower_count":20684,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":134947,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","str","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["blood","sad","blade","anxiety","masochism","self harm","hurt","feelings","demon","thoughts","cut","depression","cutting","sadness","poetry","selfharm","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-02-26T01:22:55.934456-08:00","created":"2018-10-01T08:30:48.934469-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Whispers","description":"Demon’s whisper to me. Up with your blade. Take it to your flesh. Back vile beasts!\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1521224903240-8118a07f4d56?ixlib=rb-0.3.5&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&s=0b0e1b727876d03a20fa0e63ba3e9870","slug":"whispers","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2018-10-01T08:33:04.770011-07:00","published":"2018-10-01T08:33:04.769996-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":112,"comment_count":3,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"03258954-de35-413f-a18b-291ebe673d47","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null}],"page":716}