{"count":7238,"next":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=65&tag=emotions","previous":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=63&tag=emotions","results":[{"id":"37bfd530-0a9a-4d04-a6d7-e740cb9cf003","reaction_count":130,"reaction_counts":{"NI":128,"all":128,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ballofanxiety","author_description":"Defeats enemies with the power of poetry","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"You don’t let us enjoy","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1615332858674-7c78a52a5367?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjJ8fHRlZW5hZ2UlMjBnaXJsc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2ODgyMTI&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=DymrVdsx5Eg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1615332858674-7c78a52a5367?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjJ8fHRlZW5hZ2UlMjBnaXJsc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2ODgyMTI&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=DymrVdsx5Eg","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1615332858674-7c78a52a5367?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjJ8fHRlZW5hZ2UlMjBnaXJsc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2ODgyMTI&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=DymrVdsx5Eg","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1615332858674-7c78a52a5367?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjJ8fHRlZW5hZ2UlMjBnaXJsc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2ODgyMTI&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=DymrVdsx5Eg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/aad3ea3b-7a02-2fa1-ca6e-0d2a441bc83e-1654093711134.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ballofanxiety","id":"9355210d-458f-4eef-9443-32aa1b2585c8","nickname":"BallOfAnxiety","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/aad3ea3b-7a02-2fa1-ca6e-0d2a441bc83e-1654093711134.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_aad3ea3b-7a02-2fa1-ca6e-0d2a441bc83e-1654093711134.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/89f7e7cb-896d-c1c2-8ba1-e634cac6b594-1663590768932.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_89f7e7cb-896d-c1c2-8ba1-e634cac6b594-1663590768932.png","description":"Defeats enemies with the power of poetry","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":19,"story_count":63,"reaction_count":242,"following_count":154,"follower_count":177,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":107408,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["gft","lv1","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"Hi! I am a ball of anxiety, opinions, and pure rage. It's So nice to see you! My pronouns are They/Them. I am a champion of social justice and mental health awareness. All are welcome here. This is where I post poetry but if you want more world building, character building and short stories head over to my alt @ballofanxiety2 ","reading":"I am a lover of fantasy and gay stuff. But I also enjoy more philosophical books."}},"type":"story","tags":["poem","rant","stereotypes","feelings","emotion","emotions","anger","protest","thoughts","opinions","activism"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-05-02T23:58:49.242534-07:00","created":"2022-04-10T07:42:56.955847-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"You don’t let us enjoy","description":"this is more of a rant about how teenage girls can&#39;t enjoy anything without being put in a box.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1615332858674-7c78a52a5367?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjJ8fHRlZW5hZ2UlMjBnaXJsc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2ODgyMTI&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=DymrVdsx5Eg","slug":"you-dont-let-us-enjoy","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-11T09:11:53.539228-07:00","published":"2022-04-11T09:11:53.539202-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":312,"comment_count":3,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"9355210d-458f-4eef-9443-32aa1b2585c8","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"c819ea79-4a26-4fa0-973b-9c0b7ce815c4","reaction_count":34,"reaction_counts":{"NI":33,"all":33,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ambeelia","author_description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Fantasy of a lonely child","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/bf6cf6c9-5ee6-4c9f-0bdf-2737361eb33f-1649685553390.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_bf6cf6c9-5ee6-4c9f-0bdf-2737361eb33f-1649685553390.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_bf6cf6c9-5ee6-4c9f-0bdf-2737361eb33f-1649685553390.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/bf6cf6c9-5ee6-4c9f-0bdf-2737361eb33f-1649685553390.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ambeelia","id":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","nickname":"Ame! (she/her)","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":17,"reaction_count":13,"following_count":15,"follower_count":39,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":33505,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["love","alone","loneliness","poem","poet","poetry","sad","feelings","emotions"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-04-09T17:18:27.883272-07:00","created":"2022-04-11T06:51:52.192822-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Fantasy of a lonely child","description":"About wishes of love and care.\n\nOld poem time!! It&#39;s not that old, but it&#39;s not recent. I hope you like my delirious thoughts, take care please!!","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/bf6cf6c9-5ee6-4c9f-0bdf-2737361eb33f-1649685553390.jpeg","slug":"fantasy-of-a-lonely-child","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-11T07:28:43.196782-07:00","published":"2022-04-11T07:28:43.196772-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":109,"comment_count":3,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"6c7b671d-1312-42d8-831f-2c6068921bd4","reaction_count":15,"reaction_counts":{"NI":15,"all":15,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ambeelia","author_description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Ways (a long happy poem)","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/455aef3f-0ab2-612e-bc1a-b82bc62cbf33-1649648429995.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_455aef3f-0ab2-612e-bc1a-b82bc62cbf33-1649648429995.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_455aef3f-0ab2-612e-bc1a-b82bc62cbf33-1649648429995.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/455aef3f-0ab2-612e-bc1a-b82bc62cbf33-1649648429995.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ambeelia","id":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","nickname":"Ame! (she/her)","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":17,"reaction_count":13,"following_count":15,"follower_count":39,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":33505,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poem","poetry","feelings","emotions","poet","love","happiness"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:35:17.960882-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T06:24:43.871422-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Ways (a long happy poem)","description":"A happy poem saying a little more about me, in a pretty hurried way. I&#39;m sorry if this one is not as entertaining, but i tried my best.\n\nThanks to @hymn for the nice comments and the motivation to write this one, i hope everyone that read this can have a beautiful day/night!!","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/455aef3f-0ab2-612e-bc1a-b82bc62cbf33-1649648429995.jpeg","slug":"ways-a-long-happy-poem","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T20:48:35.738475-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T20:48:35.738463-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":65,"comment_count":2,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"e8169d12-979d-44e7-a4d5-146d7c0e8605","reaction_count":270,"reaction_counts":{"NI":268,"all":268,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"emery_","author_description":"happiness is a butterfly","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\n\n\n\nyou can't see me","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/08b1f0f2-2011-a33d-86a2-d52c035d7eae-1649643932920.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_08b1f0f2-2011-a33d-86a2-d52c035d7eae-1649643932920.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_08b1f0f2-2011-a33d-86a2-d52c035d7eae-1649643932920.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/08b1f0f2-2011-a33d-86a2-d52c035d7eae-1649643932920.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"emery_","id":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","nickname":"ℯ𝓂ℯ𝓇𝓎","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","description":"happiness is a butterfly","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":3,"story_count":63,"reaction_count":1042,"following_count":58,"follower_count":11309,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1151368,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv2","badges":["lv1","gft","fqr","lv2","amb","pwr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"","reading":"- the seven husbands of evelyn hugo\n- fourth wing\n- powerless\n- the housemaid\n- once upon a broken heart series\n- shatter me series\n- folk of the air series\n- verity\n- i fell in love with hope\n- agggtm series\n","writing":"poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","poet","poem","poems","thoughts","feelings","emotions","secrets","depressing","depression","anxiety","pain","painful","hurting","hurt-","hurt","broke-","broke","broken","break","breaking","die","dying","bleed","bleeding","cry","crying","t e a r s","tears","love","hate","hate-","drown","drowning","gone","drained","drain","idk","lol","ok"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-01-26T12:15:16.989857-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T19:07:36.640947-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\n\n\n\nyou can't see me","description":"drained.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/08b1f0f2-2011-a33d-86a2-d52c035d7eae-1649643932920.jpeg","slug":"you-cant-see-me","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T19:30:30.798594-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T19:30:30.798542-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/e8169d12-979d-44e7-a4d5-146d7c0e8605-133.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":1879,"comment_count":17,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"b004b0ef-67a4-4f14-9bdb-5902ec91e4a1","reaction_count":332,"reaction_counts":{"NI":331,"all":331,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":1,"username":"hymn","author_description":"peace","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\nsomeone to care for me","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e3a077fd-fdf0-fbd4-8eb5-b0ea8a0c95a1-1649635718843.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_e3a077fd-fdf0-fbd4-8eb5-b0ea8a0c95a1-1649635718843.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_e3a077fd-fdf0-fbd4-8eb5-b0ea8a0c95a1-1649635718843.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e3a077fd-fdf0-fbd4-8eb5-b0ea8a0c95a1-1649635718843.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"hymn","id":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","nickname":"hailey","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","description":"peace","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":65,"story_count":450,"reaction_count":1402,"following_count":27,"follower_count":34731,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2548931,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv3","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr","amb","pwr","lv3","str","avr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"hi! i’m 16 and i write some depressing poems, but that’s ok :D\n\npinterest: https://pin.it/1rttIiU (@hymn0s0)","reading":"…books. “If I Can’t Have You”, “You’d Be Home Now”,“My Dark Vanessa”, “Daisy Jones and The Six”, “Verity”, “Malibu Rising”  “Falling into place”, etc.","writing":"depressing poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","emotions","feelings","dp","tw","disappearing"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-12-12T14:47:17.278881-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T16:47:51.164496-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"someone to care for me","description":"possible tw. it’s already broken","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/e3a077fd-fdf0-fbd4-8eb5-b0ea8a0c95a1-1649635718843.png","slug":"someone-to-care-for-me","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T17:12:41.290491-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T17:12:41.290476-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/b004b0ef-67a4-4f14-9bdb-5902ec91e4a1-141.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":3270,"comment_count":18,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"3ab01777-fc9b-4a79-aa3b-509c6c4c29dd","reaction_count":122,"reaction_counts":{"NI":117,"all":117,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ambeelia","author_description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"No one ever wants me (i don't want myself either)","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/534ddd71-1629-125c-b1ae-65fd6cbcfcfe-1649610709041.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_534ddd71-1629-125c-b1ae-65fd6cbcfcfe-1649610709041.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_534ddd71-1629-125c-b1ae-65fd6cbcfcfe-1649610709041.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/534ddd71-1629-125c-b1ae-65fd6cbcfcfe-1649610709041.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ambeelia","id":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","nickname":"Ame! (she/her)","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_92a21056-cdd8-b370-a990-8e52a5e15d00-1649474097849.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_bcd014f6-123c-ea98-ef6c-dbd190b80ee7-1649474145272.jpeg","description":"i like to write poetry and meet people ♡","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":17,"reaction_count":13,"following_count":15,"follower_count":39,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":33505,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","emotions","feelings","poetry","poem","tw","blood","(?)","alone"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-04-09T17:18:27.847581-07:00","created":"2022-04-10T10:03:17.697886-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"No one ever wants me (i don't want myself either)","description":"Tw for blood i think!! About being tired of not being worth of attention\n\nI&#39;m feeling pretty bad right now, but i hope you can enjoy my pain :) please don&#39;t be like me and take care of yourself, thank you!","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/534ddd71-1629-125c-b1ae-65fd6cbcfcfe-1649610709041.jpeg","slug":"no-one-ever-wants-me-i-dont-want-myself-either","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T11:13:34.381614-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T11:13:34.381603-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":259,"comment_count":7,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e31527ba-1075-4710-b9ba-bbd39b683f4d","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"8a99739e-b3e0-49e2-a1b9-edafd7d19dd8","reaction_count":1,"reaction_counts":{"NI":1,"all":1,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"syncvion","author_description":"working on targets and emotions","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"title:\nwondering whose reality this is","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1533985062386-ef0837f31bc0?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8ZGFuZGVsaW9uc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDQ3NzA&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=YNM4KStg78I","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1533985062386-ef0837f31bc0?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8ZGFuZGVsaW9uc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDQ3NzA&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=YNM4KStg78I","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1533985062386-ef0837f31bc0?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8ZGFuZGVsaW9uc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDQ3NzA&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=YNM4KStg78I","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1533985062386-ef0837f31bc0?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8ZGFuZGVsaW9uc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDQ3NzA&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=YNM4KStg78I"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/d16e6806-bb15-e833-35cd-183abd4e103c-1649603421214.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"syncvion","id":"0663c587-df86-4280-802a-2111ed90b814","nickname":"•⟬⟬sync⟭⟭•","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/d16e6806-bb15-e833-35cd-183abd4e103c-1649603421214.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_d16e6806-bb15-e833-35cd-183abd4e103c-1649603421214.png","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"working on targets and emotions","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":9,"follower_count":4,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1499,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","feelings","multiverse","emotions","love","thoughts","commaful"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:17:06.175737-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T08:34:48.585586-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"title:\nwondering whose reality this is","description":"Sometimes I&#39;m left wondering\nIf this reality&#39;s mine or yours;\nBecause I created it\nBut it&#39;s for you.\n---\nrewriting reality is painful, but sometimes it has to be done","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1533985062386-ef0837f31bc0?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8ZGFuZGVsaW9uc3xlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDQ3NzA&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=YNM4KStg78I","slug":"wondering-whose-reality-this-is","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T08:47:52.120030-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T08:47:52.120019-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":15,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"0663c587-df86-4280-802a-2111ed90b814","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"b33011cc-411b-4cf1-928d-0d8b1a166c17","reaction_count":38,"reaction_counts":{"NI":38,"all":38,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"hovmardir","author_description":"Here to share and be inspired.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"The Warrior's Hymn","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1553986782-9f6de60b51b4?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8d2FycmlvcnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDE4MDY&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=JOzv_pAkcMk","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1553986782-9f6de60b51b4?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8d2FycmlvcnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDE4MDY&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=JOzv_pAkcMk","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1553986782-9f6de60b51b4?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8d2FycmlvcnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDE4MDY&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=JOzv_pAkcMk","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1553986782-9f6de60b51b4?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8d2FycmlvcnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDE4MDY&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=JOzv_pAkcMk"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"hovmardir","id":"26885c2d-960c-47c5-9f14-b9d13812c314","nickname":"Hovsep","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/1e19a2fe-6d7f-dd59-7b31-54bb2c2b90ba-1647729226274.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_1e19a2fe-6d7f-dd59-7b31-54bb2c2b90ba-1647729226274.jpeg","description":"Here to share and be inspired.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":13,"reaction_count":138,"following_count":21,"follower_count":31,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":25721,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["thoughts","sad","poem","poetry","emotions","feelings","dark"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:28:40.746052-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T07:35:51.619236-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"The Warrior's Hymn","description":"This was written a while back, thinking about how each must face death one day. Dark, but real. Thanks for reading. ","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1553986782-9f6de60b51b4?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8Mnx8d2FycmlvcnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDk2MDE4MDY&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=JOzv_pAkcMk","slug":"the-warriors-hymn","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T07:48:56.997599-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T07:48:56.997590-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":14,"comment_count":6,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"26885c2d-960c-47c5-9f14-b9d13812c314","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"e8cfc1c2-de38-4951-94cb-406f4294abf3","reaction_count":5,"reaction_counts":{"NI":4,"LV":1,"all":5,"top":["NI","LV"]},"shoutout_count":1,"username":"melikaz","author_description":"Hello!","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"HOME","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518780664697-55e3ad937233?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTZ8fGhvbWV8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQ5NTc5MTYy&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=eWqOgJ-lfiI","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518780664697-55e3ad937233?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTZ8fGhvbWV8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQ5NTc5MTYy&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=eWqOgJ-lfiI","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518780664697-55e3ad937233?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTZ8fGhvbWV8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQ5NTc5MTYy&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=eWqOgJ-lfiI","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518780664697-55e3ad937233?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTZ8fGhvbWV8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQ5NTc5MTYy&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=eWqOgJ-lfiI"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/a05ca7c7-6b14-48ef-6357-5394a9ecfc9d-1641113406255.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"melikaz","id":"17755fe2-7c63-422d-95f7-c4d3db17ddf6","nickname":"Melika","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/a05ca7c7-6b14-48ef-6357-5394a9ecfc9d-1641113406255.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_a05ca7c7-6b14-48ef-6357-5394a9ecfc9d-1641113406255.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/abe70d76-510e-c03c-2ed0-af810affb52c-1641113481010.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_abe70d76-510e-c03c-2ed0-af810affb52c-1641113481010.jpeg","description":"Hello!","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":2,"story_count":32,"reaction_count":262,"following_count":19,"follower_count":92,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":88110,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"amb","badges":["lv1","amb","lv2"],"social_urls":{"twitter":"namelessmelxx","instagram":"namelessmel_xx"},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["love","lover","reunion","romance","feelings","emotions","home","sweet","happy","eyes","green","waiting","longdistance","long distance","relationship","relation ship"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:18:20.599073-08:00","created":"2022-04-10T01:09:02.476258-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"HOME","description":"A reunion of lovers❤","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518780664697-55e3ad937233?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MTZ8fGhvbWV8ZW58MHx8fHwxNjQ5NTc5MTYy&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=eWqOgJ-lfiI","slug":"home","categories":["RM"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-10T02:07:07.624372-07:00","published":"2022-04-10T02:07:07.624358-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":24,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"17755fe2-7c63-422d-95f7-c4d3db17ddf6","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"f17a9fc6-1aaa-4c1a-91b8-47519dce22cc","reaction_count":398,"reaction_counts":{"NI":394,"all":394,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":1,"username":"hymn","author_description":"peace","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\nif i didn't bleed","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/49c05b7e-54ae-29c6-d4cf-7eee303827a2-1649558435912.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_49c05b7e-54ae-29c6-d4cf-7eee303827a2-1649558435912.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_49c05b7e-54ae-29c6-d4cf-7eee303827a2-1649558435912.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/49c05b7e-54ae-29c6-d4cf-7eee303827a2-1649558435912.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"hymn","id":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","nickname":"hailey","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","description":"peace","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":65,"story_count":450,"reaction_count":1402,"following_count":27,"follower_count":34731,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2548931,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv3","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr","amb","pwr","lv3","str","avr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"hi! i’m 16 and i write some depressing poems, but that’s ok :D\n\npinterest: https://pin.it/1rttIiU (@hymn0s0)","reading":"…books. “If I Can’t Have You”, “You’d Be Home Now”,“My Dark Vanessa”, “Daisy Jones and The Six”, “Verity”, “Malibu Rising”  “Falling into place”, etc.","writing":"depressing poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","emotions","feelings","dp","tw","disappearing"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-12-12T14:47:17.324959-08:00","created":"2022-04-09T19:19:51.524917-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"if i didn’t bleed","description":"possible tw. i wish i could word this right","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/49c05b7e-54ae-29c6-d4cf-7eee303827a2-1649558435912.png","slug":"if-i-didnt-bleed","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-09T19:42:28.681727-07:00","published":"2022-04-09T19:42:28.681720-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/f17a9fc6-1aaa-4c1a-91b8-47519dce22cc-147.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":3967,"comment_count":20,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"b0501303-9dbd-4b0f-aa69-788e29db1ad6","reaction_count":14,"reaction_counts":{"NI":14,"all":14,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"synthaspide","author_description":"A free bird in this cruel world.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"My Answer","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/c/fire-291-1_800.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/c/fire-291-1_90.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/c/fire-291-1_480.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/c/fire-291-1_800.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/c7e86c17-e125-7470-0f06-69b9809382d2-1678523646480.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"synthaspide","id":"475bae0b-c770-41cb-a51d-82e829b88521","nickname":"SynthaSpide","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/c7e86c17-e125-7470-0f06-69b9809382d2-1678523646480.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_c7e86c17-e125-7470-0f06-69b9809382d2-1678523646480.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/08c3758d-dd5c-5652-6efe-a75c56866e06-1567519785046.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_08c3758d-dd5c-5652-6efe-a75c56866e06-1567519785046.jpeg","description":"A free bird in this cruel world.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":59,"story_count":374,"reaction_count":879,"following_count":188,"follower_count":5338,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":278377,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr","str"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["answer","poem","words","rhymes","hurt-","hurt","feelings","emotions","pain","heart break","heartbreak","dailychallenge","daily challenge","prompt","daily-prompt","dailyprompt"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":"8725bab3-cb68-4e7e-8bb2-d95ff861cb9a","img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:30:49.616887-08:00","created":"2022-04-09T09:37:11.928724-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"My Answer","description":"Thank you for reading! 💖","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/c/fire-291-1_800.jpeg","slug":"my-answer","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-09T09:52:33.565600-07:00","published":"2022-04-09T09:52:33.565529-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":56,"comment_count":0,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"475bae0b-c770-41cb-a51d-82e829b88521","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"8772606f-7dcd-4cf0-8412-08491d0e40b5","reaction_count":328,"reaction_counts":{"NI":325,"all":325,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"emery_","author_description":"happiness is a butterfly","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\ni want to be heard","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/68bd7d3b-99d5-e1d7-3a70-b30b647b3d28-1649514356501.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_68bd7d3b-99d5-e1d7-3a70-b30b647b3d28-1649514356501.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_68bd7d3b-99d5-e1d7-3a70-b30b647b3d28-1649514356501.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/68bd7d3b-99d5-e1d7-3a70-b30b647b3d28-1649514356501.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"emery_","id":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","nickname":"ℯ𝓂ℯ𝓇𝓎","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","description":"happiness is a butterfly","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":3,"story_count":63,"reaction_count":1042,"following_count":58,"follower_count":11309,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1151368,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv2","badges":["lv1","gft","fqr","lv2","amb","pwr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"","reading":"- the seven husbands of evelyn hugo\n- fourth wing\n- powerless\n- the housemaid\n- once upon a broken heart series\n- shatter me series\n- folk of the air series\n- verity\n- i fell in love with hope\n- agggtm series\n","writing":"poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","poem","poems","poet","thoughts","feelings","emotions","secrets","i","want","to","be","heard","hear","alone","lonely","pain","painful","depression","depressing","anxiety","love","hate","hate-","broke-","broke","broken","break","breaking","hurt-","hurt","hurting","dying","blue","idk","lol","ok","me"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-05-25T13:18:41.535118-07:00","created":"2022-04-09T07:02:47.526996-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\ni want to be heard","description":"nobody hears me","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/68bd7d3b-99d5-e1d7-3a70-b30b647b3d28-1649514356501.jpeg","slug":"i-want-to-be-heard","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-09T07:32:50.677758-07:00","published":"2022-04-09T07:32:50.677744-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":2096,"comment_count":28,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"fdc61e7c-9e0f-4dcf-b0f5-34ab719dc45a","reaction_count":392,"reaction_counts":{"NI":387,"all":387,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":4,"username":"hymn","author_description":"peace","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\nFIA","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d7d73960-8ba2-cc82-153d-ff8e24adb207-1649442970470.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_d7d73960-8ba2-cc82-153d-ff8e24adb207-1649442970470.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_d7d73960-8ba2-cc82-153d-ff8e24adb207-1649442970470.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d7d73960-8ba2-cc82-153d-ff8e24adb207-1649442970470.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"hymn","id":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","nickname":"hailey","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_61d7f7f8-0a9e-9139-b94d-9c8aec277678-1692414111496.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_5a8c8ee9-f7fe-6c82-16f3-30f8820f8fc9-1646865800613.jpeg","description":"peace","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":65,"story_count":450,"reaction_count":1402,"following_count":27,"follower_count":34731,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2548931,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv3","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr","amb","pwr","lv3","str","avr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"hi! i’m 16 and i write some depressing poems, but that’s ok :D\n\npinterest: https://pin.it/1rttIiU (@hymn0s0)","reading":"…books. “If I Can’t Have You”, “You’d Be Home Now”,“My Dark Vanessa”, “Daisy Jones and The Six”, “Verity”, “Malibu Rising”  “Falling into place”, etc.","writing":"depressing poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","feelings","emotions","anger","rated r"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-10-30T09:04:56.534033-07:00","created":"2022-04-08T11:19:32.066399-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"FIA","description":"“you” is me","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d7d73960-8ba2-cc82-153d-ff8e24adb207-1649442970470.png","slug":"fia","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-08T11:39:31.153753-07:00","published":"2022-04-08T11:39:31.153739-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":3359,"comment_count":21,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"529794ab-7670-46c1-8f7a-41a063a54380","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"b7d44072-2cdf-4e1c-873d-f7c73455972f","reaction_count":291,"reaction_counts":{"NI":288,"SD":1,"all":289,"top":["NI","SD"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"emery_","author_description":"happiness is a butterfly","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\n\n\n\n\nyou’d never love me back","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/2b8af48a-c19b-9585-2014-291ae8df0aff-1649370271278.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_2b8af48a-c19b-9585-2014-291ae8df0aff-1649370271278.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_2b8af48a-c19b-9585-2014-291ae8df0aff-1649370271278.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/2b8af48a-c19b-9585-2014-291ae8df0aff-1649370271278.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"emery_","id":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","nickname":"ℯ𝓂ℯ𝓇𝓎","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","description":"happiness is a butterfly","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":3,"story_count":63,"reaction_count":1042,"following_count":58,"follower_count":11309,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1151368,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv2","badges":["lv1","gft","fqr","lv2","amb","pwr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"","reading":"- the seven husbands of evelyn hugo\n- fourth wing\n- powerless\n- the housemaid\n- once upon a broken heart series\n- shatter me series\n- folk of the air series\n- verity\n- i fell in love with hope\n- agggtm series\n","writing":"poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","poet","poem","poems","love","thoughts","feelings","emotions","secrets","romance","heartbreak","heart break","pain","painful","crying","cry","blood","hurt-","hurt","hurting","break","breaking","broken","broke-","broke","broken heart","brokenheart","relationships","crush","idk","lol","ok"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-01-26T12:16:08.189002-08:00","created":"2022-04-07T14:36:09.122461-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\n\n\n\n\nyou’d never love me back","description":"not sure which nonexistent crush i wrote this about","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/2b8af48a-c19b-9585-2014-291ae8df0aff-1649370271278.jpeg","slug":"youd-never-love-me-back","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-07T15:31:26.647538-07:00","published":"2022-04-07T15:31:26.647524-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/b7d44072-2cdf-4e1c-873d-f7c73455972f-136.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":2441,"comment_count":21,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"289aeaca-df93-466d-889a-826c0656cc9d","reaction_count":26,"reaction_counts":{"NI":25,"LV":1,"all":26,"top":["NI","LV"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"spphantom","author_description":"Fragments of the lost Phantom","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"The bank robber","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1559581958-df379578606a?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8Um9iYmVyfGVufDB8fHx8MTY0OTM2MjA3Nw&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=S2qA7JhjI6Y","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1559581958-df379578606a?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8Um9iYmVyfGVufDB8fHx8MTY0OTM2MjA3Nw&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=S2qA7JhjI6Y","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1559581958-df379578606a?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8Um9iYmVyfGVufDB8fHx8MTY0OTM2MjA3Nw&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=S2qA7JhjI6Y","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1559581958-df379578606a?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8Um9iYmVyfGVufDB8fHx8MTY0OTM2MjA3Nw&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=S2qA7JhjI6Y"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/f0cf51c9-199d-f5d4-8ce8-13ecf412d9df-1637515550361.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"spphantom","id":"6d4025d9-b852-4775-b379-d8d4cd2824bc","nickname":"Phantom","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/f0cf51c9-199d-f5d4-8ce8-13ecf412d9df-1637515550361.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_f0cf51c9-199d-f5d4-8ce8-13ecf412d9df-1637515550361.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/5dd3fe3f-ae0a-f686-f0a7-1752c49fbf33-1644967141253.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_5dd3fe3f-ae0a-f686-f0a7-1752c49fbf33-1644967141253.jpeg","description":"Fragments of the lost Phantom","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":5,"story_count":42,"reaction_count":366,"following_count":53,"follower_count":583,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":99619,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["truestory","true story","life","teen","child","funny","emotions","feelings","real","story","sad","reality","hurt-","hurt","memories","nonfiction","non-fiction","slice of life","sliceoflife","past","young adult","youngadult","adult","children","robber"],"series":{"title":"The Phantom Stories","description":"I'll keep all the stories related to my personal life here.","userId":"6d4025d9-b852-4775-b379-d8d4cd2824bc","is_public":true,"slug":"the-phantom-stories","thumbnail":null,"banner_image":null,"first_story_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1547389432-95b8f3c47f3c?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8R2FyZGVufGVufDB8fHx8MTY0MjMyNTc5NQ&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=FXmn2BZn2A4","user":{"username":"spphantom","id":"6d4025d9-b852-4775-b379-d8d4cd2824bc","nickname":"Phantom","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/f0cf51c9-199d-f5d4-8ce8-13ecf412d9df-1637515550361.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_f0cf51c9-199d-f5d4-8ce8-13ecf412d9df-1637515550361.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/5dd3fe3f-ae0a-f686-f0a7-1752c49fbf33-1644967141253.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_5dd3fe3f-ae0a-f686-f0a7-1752c49fbf33-1644967141253.jpeg","description":"Fragments of the lost Phantom","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":5,"story_count":42,"reaction_count":366,"following_count":53,"follower_count":583,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":99619,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"is_following":null,"reaction_counts":{"all":0},"id":"f964aeee-e37a-4e78-a43a-69b423b2fa63","tags":["story","nonfiction","non-fiction","truestory","true story","series","teen","teenage","life","sad","love","funny","emotions","feelings"],"story_count":4,"is_series":true,"type":"series","follower_count":0},"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:18:03.028104-08:00","created":"2022-04-07T13:06:37.693945-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"The bank robber","description":"Gather around and read the tale of the bank robber!! ","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1559581958-df379578606a?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8OHx8Um9iYmVyfGVufDB8fHx8MTY0OTM2MjA3Nw&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=S2qA7JhjI6Y","slug":"the-bank-robber","categories":["TS"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-07T13:34:12.066187-07:00","published":"2022-04-07T13:34:12.066173-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":104,"comment_count":2,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"6d4025d9-b852-4775-b379-d8d4cd2824bc","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"ef2e9d1d-a5f5-49c4-bf4b-54a7bddf4a31","reaction_count":49,"reaction_counts":{"NI":49,"all":49,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"hovmardir","author_description":"Here to share and be inspired.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"The Siren's Call ","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1471047283799-ebd97acc0bc3?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjB8fERhcmslMjBPY2VhbnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDkyOTgxNzc&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=agE97zp_Xvo","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1471047283799-ebd97acc0bc3?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjB8fERhcmslMjBPY2VhbnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDkyOTgxNzc&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&w=200&imgid=agE97zp_Xvo","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1471047283799-ebd97acc0bc3?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjB8fERhcmslMjBPY2VhbnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDkyOTgxNzc&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&w=480&imgid=agE97zp_Xvo","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1471047283799-ebd97acc0bc3?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjB8fERhcmslMjBPY2VhbnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDkyOTgxNzc&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=agE97zp_Xvo"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"hovmardir","id":"26885c2d-960c-47c5-9f14-b9d13812c314","nickname":"Hovsep","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_01af1de1-6397-45f4-736d-3c0272f42e91-1647728320272.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/1e19a2fe-6d7f-dd59-7b31-54bb2c2b90ba-1647729226274.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_1e19a2fe-6d7f-dd59-7b31-54bb2c2b90ba-1647729226274.jpeg","description":"Here to share and be inspired.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":13,"reaction_count":138,"following_count":21,"follower_count":31,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":25721,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poem","poetry","sad","thoughts","emotions","feelings","love"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:45:23.399012-08:00","created":"2022-04-06T19:15:32.505192-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"The Siren's Call ","description":"This one was a little different for me. Thanks for taking the time to read it. \n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1471047283799-ebd97acc0bc3?crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&fit=max&fm=jpg&ixid=MnwxMjI2fDB8MXxzZWFyY2h8MjB8fERhcmslMjBPY2VhbnxlbnwwfHx8fDE2NDkyOTgxNzc&ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&w=720&imgid=agE97zp_Xvo","slug":"the-sirens-call","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-06T19:27:44.445390-07:00","published":"2022-04-06T19:27:44.445379-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":38,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"26885c2d-960c-47c5-9f14-b9d13812c314","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"864f59e6-6fc9-404a-b32f-7a63a875d27d","reaction_count":91,"reaction_counts":{"NI":90,"all":90,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"notexactlyhuman","author_description":"soggy cereal","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"gladioli don't die in the storm.","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cd7cf5fe-8775-0c89-15b7-33d828f77b94-1649181410699.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_cd7cf5fe-8775-0c89-15b7-33d828f77b94-1649181410699.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_cd7cf5fe-8775-0c89-15b7-33d828f77b94-1649181410699.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cd7cf5fe-8775-0c89-15b7-33d828f77b94-1649181410699.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9b5470c7-879f-4937-8efd-4f23d090fb0b-1703365461881.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"notexactlyhuman","id":"5b232a3c-2ffe-4b9a-bbbb-eb49073c0a24","nickname":"kaz","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9b5470c7-879f-4937-8efd-4f23d090fb0b-1703365461881.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_9b5470c7-879f-4937-8efd-4f23d090fb0b-1703365461881.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/82ef91e3-a9fc-5df6-d1d1-3e9258cdc8f2-1702804957843.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_82ef91e3-a9fc-5df6-d1d1-3e9258cdc8f2-1702804957843.jpeg","description":"soggy cereal","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":204,"story_count":510,"reaction_count":7592,"following_count":78,"follower_count":4030,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2229206,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","fqr","amb","pwr","str","lv3","avr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"should i rule the world or should i end it?\nor should i just go back to bed?\nnah, there's no point in living, \nif i stay stuck inside my head.\n\nchasing dreams like how you chase bitches,\ncraving acceptance while i crave something more,\nwhy don't you run for your momma and i'll run for the horizon?\ndon't try to stop me from breaking down the door.\n\nso, should i rule the world or should i end it?\nor perhaps i should build something new?\nhere i stand in my kingdom of chaos,\nwhilst in the ashes, there lies you.\n\n~ kaz","reading":"tv subtitles","writing":"obituaries"}},"type":"story","tags":["storm","emotions","flowers","strong","overwhelm","panic","rain","lightning"],"series":{"title":"certified baddie :P","description":"some of my best poems i guess","userId":"5b232a3c-2ffe-4b9a-bbbb-eb49073c0a24","is_public":true,"slug":"certified-baddie-p","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cf97dd24-c5d1-c45a-4d7e-d46934567acd-1698252423725.jpeg","banner_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/d30a6aa7-4b03-caa0-3ce9-452440f61fab-1698252458137.jpeg","first_story_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/6638040d-04c5-71a2-22bb-0846e416251d-1698251720865.png","user":{"username":"notexactlyhuman","id":"5b232a3c-2ffe-4b9a-bbbb-eb49073c0a24","nickname":"kaz","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9b5470c7-879f-4937-8efd-4f23d090fb0b-1703365461881.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_9b5470c7-879f-4937-8efd-4f23d090fb0b-1703365461881.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/82ef91e3-a9fc-5df6-d1d1-3e9258cdc8f2-1702804957843.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_82ef91e3-a9fc-5df6-d1d1-3e9258cdc8f2-1702804957843.jpeg","description":"soggy cereal","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":204,"story_count":510,"reaction_count":7592,"following_count":78,"follower_count":4030,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":2229206,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","fqr","amb","pwr","str","lv3","avr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"should i rule the world or should i end it?\nor should i just go back to bed?\nnah, there's no point in living, \nif i stay stuck inside my head.\n\nchasing dreams like how you chase bitches,\ncraving acceptance while i crave something more,\nwhy don't you run for your momma and i'll run for the horizon?\ndon't try to stop me from breaking down the door.\n\nso, should i rule the world or should i end it?\nor perhaps i should build something new?\nhere i stand in my kingdom of chaos,\nwhilst in the ashes, there lies you.\n\n~ kaz","reading":"tv subtitles","writing":"obituaries"}},"is_following":null,"reaction_counts":{"all":0},"id":"028a8a80-ed36-4666-97ed-1620bf37a3c1","tags":["baddie","poems","yuhhhh"],"story_count":42,"is_series":true,"type":"series","follower_count":5},"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-05-13T05:00:57.922958-07:00","created":"2022-04-06T00:26:09.928266-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"gladioli don't die in the storm.","description":"what do u think the meaning of this poem is? &lt;3","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cd7cf5fe-8775-0c89-15b7-33d828f77b94-1649181410699.jpeg","slug":"gladioli-dont-die-in-the-storm","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-06T00:44:12.235004-07:00","published":"2022-04-06T00:44:12.234996-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":215,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"5b232a3c-2ffe-4b9a-bbbb-eb49073c0a24","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"37dab600-6563-4fb3-bda1-e75911c5d3b3","reaction_count":112,"reaction_counts":{"NI":112,"all":112,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"rileylyrics","author_description":"Vivamus, moriendum est.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"...","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/f488eee9-7e18-20f5-7806-5ab148f949fd-1649223341197.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_f488eee9-7e18-20f5-7806-5ab148f949fd-1649223341197.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_f488eee9-7e18-20f5-7806-5ab148f949fd-1649223341197.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/f488eee9-7e18-20f5-7806-5ab148f949fd-1649223341197.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/604608a5-bf9f-e1cc-4dc6-19b9e33e76fb-1646633611598.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"rileylyrics","id":"2d697c24-21fd-4e88-b1be-b06463f0aeb8","nickname":"Riley","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/604608a5-bf9f-e1cc-4dc6-19b9e33e76fb-1646633611598.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_604608a5-bf9f-e1cc-4dc6-19b9e33e76fb-1646633611598.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/1db406b2-5af5-a79c-d451-d30e8095bb2c-1646633737735.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_1db406b2-5af5-a79c-d451-d30e8095bb2c-1646633737735.jpeg","description":"Vivamus, moriendum est.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":58,"reaction_count":525,"following_count":20,"follower_count":80,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":259597,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sofa","sad","feeligs","emotions"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-03-11T17:38:46.329513-08:00","created":"2022-04-05T22:33:31.506494-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"...","description":"For the daily prompt.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/f488eee9-7e18-20f5-7806-5ab148f949fd-1649223341197.jpeg","slug":"story20220405","categories":[],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-05T22:49:57.635704-07:00","published":"2022-04-05T22:49:57.635696-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":282,"comment_count":9,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"2d697c24-21fd-4e88-b1be-b06463f0aeb8","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"6ee5a763-b3ae-4f01-b84e-63b1627e45f7","reaction_count":260,"reaction_counts":{"NI":253,"SD":1,"all":254,"top":["NI","SD"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"emery_","author_description":"happiness is a butterfly","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\npaper cranes","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/34f6adf3-adb2-48e8-7840-9de8b77906f9-1649194018922.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_34f6adf3-adb2-48e8-7840-9de8b77906f9-1649194018922.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_34f6adf3-adb2-48e8-7840-9de8b77906f9-1649194018922.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/34f6adf3-adb2-48e8-7840-9de8b77906f9-1649194018922.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"emery_","id":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","nickname":"ℯ𝓂ℯ𝓇𝓎","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_0ab5be54-10e2-6442-604b-c146e4f449d5-1654383807163.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_fa899c13-ed22-b651-cd9f-05524c89a1d7-1657822964661.jpeg","description":"happiness is a butterfly","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":3,"story_count":63,"reaction_count":1042,"following_count":58,"follower_count":11309,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1151368,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv2","badges":["lv1","gft","fqr","lv2","amb","pwr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"","reading":"- the seven husbands of evelyn hugo\n- fourth wing\n- powerless\n- the housemaid\n- once upon a broken heart series\n- shatter me series\n- folk of the air series\n- verity\n- i fell in love with hope\n- agggtm series\n","writing":"poems"}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","poem","poems","poet","love","hate","hate-","thoughts","feelings","emotions","secrets","pain","broken","broke-","broke","break","broken heart","brokenheart","romance","paper","cranes","paper cranes","sadako","idk","lol","ok","hurt-","hurt","hurting","regret","friend-ship","friendship","toxic","relationship","relation ship"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-05-25T13:18:41.492686-07:00","created":"2022-04-05T13:55:35.923786-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\npaper cranes","description":"and finally after the week long writer&#39;s block, i&#39;m on a writing rampage","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/34f6adf3-adb2-48e8-7840-9de8b77906f9-1649194018922.jpeg","slug":"paper-cranes","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-05T14:28:11.128214-07:00","published":"2022-04-05T14:28:11.128198-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":2076,"comment_count":13,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"a3d97541-db40-44e1-bcaa-2c7941509153","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"ed96b810-ba8a-49c8-b83a-e0bb59dec432","reaction_count":51,"reaction_counts":{"NI":51,"all":51,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"holahobi7","author_description":"drowning in 🎵music🎵","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"𝙈𝙖𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙈𝙮 𝙀𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/8bceca0f-5501-6d1a-a09b-abe13cd256b2-1649167205420.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_8bceca0f-5501-6d1a-a09b-abe13cd256b2-1649167205420.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_8bceca0f-5501-6d1a-a09b-abe13cd256b2-1649167205420.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/8bceca0f-5501-6d1a-a09b-abe13cd256b2-1649167205420.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9e5b279c-27c0-457b-4ddf-c78e5b1a433c-1658325328617.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"holahobi7","id":"8a376508-1802-4de5-9593-0dfe49f3f163","nickname":"Ste💜","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9e5b279c-27c0-457b-4ddf-c78e5b1a433c-1658325328617.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_9e5b279c-27c0-457b-4ddf-c78e5b1a433c-1658325328617.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/2acffdaf-0451-b2e7-c045-56550e75c71f-1658325248066.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_2acffdaf-0451-b2e7-c045-56550e75c71f-1658325248066.jpeg","description":"drowning in 🎵music🎵","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":30,"story_count":110,"reaction_count":1639,"following_count":39,"follower_count":177,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":556943,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","amb","lv2","gft","fqr","pwr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"Simple. Innocent ;)","reading":"Fantasy, thriller and mystery! <3","writing":"Poems.....and stupid stuff too! :))"}},"type":"story","tags":["feelings","poetry","mask","emotions","poem"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-09-22T09:01:04.058944-07:00","created":"2022-04-05T06:10:33.754986-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"𝙈𝙖𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙈𝙮 𝙀𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨","description":"haha fictional....just another rubbish poem","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/8bceca0f-5501-6d1a-a09b-abe13cd256b2-1649167205420.jpeg","slug":"---9","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2022-04-05T07:03:12.698502-07:00","published":"2022-04-05T07:03:12.698493-07:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":115,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"8a376508-1802-4de5-9593-0dfe49f3f163","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null}],"page":64}