{"count":2068,"next":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=50&tag=lonely","previous":"https://commaful.com/api/stories/tag/?page=48&tag=lonely","results":[{"id":"750708aa-8f45-4b3e-b21e-94556ab2a414","reaction_count":28,"reaction_counts":{"NI":28,"all":28,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"untitlelogy","author_description":"There is no me","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Unambitious ... but living a fulfilling life!","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/1979f049-9170-24c9-ada0-9789d8c8a7b9-1605116170409.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_1979f049-9170-24c9-ada0-9789d8c8a7b9-1605116170409.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_1979f049-9170-24c9-ada0-9789d8c8a7b9-1605116170409.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/1979f049-9170-24c9-ada0-9789d8c8a7b9-1605116170409.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/481a39f5-865c-b779-aea1-2e70e878f92d-1606663142486.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"untitlelogy","id":"f5de482e-a725-4d1e-8b82-0f55e19134c9","nickname":"Untitlelogy","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/481a39f5-865c-b779-aea1-2e70e878f92d-1606663142486.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_481a39f5-865c-b779-aea1-2e70e878f92d-1606663142486.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/8ec97f0c-8937-67bb-6ebc-a918d140e25b-1594709012401.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_8ec97f0c-8937-67bb-6ebc-a918d140e25b-1594709012401.jpeg","description":"There is no me","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":70,"reaction_count":24,"following_count":39,"follower_count":136,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":18914,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["legacy","feeling","emotion","fulfillement","life","miserable","unambitious","monster","mounstrous","lonely","loneliness","empty","emptiness","achille","greekmythology","greek mythology","mythology","untitled","untitlelogy","samo","philosophy","personal development","personaldevelopment","move forward","moveforward","mentalhealth","mental health","keepgoing","keep going","knowledgeofself","selfdevelopmenttoolsforlife","sad","happy","t e a r s","tears"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2023-06-05T23:53:27.535952-07:00","created":"2020-11-11T09:25:22.870791-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Unambitious ... but living a fulfilling life!","description":"","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/1979f049-9170-24c9-ada0-9789d8c8a7b9-1605116170409.jpeg","slug":"unambitious--but-living-a-fulfilling-life","categories":["TS"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-11T09:49:10.237294-08:00","published":"2020-11-11T09:49:10.237279-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":27,"comment_count":6,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"f5de482e-a725-4d1e-8b82-0f55e19134c9","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"1df10fef-a0f7-43c2-9025-fa95da237b43","reaction_count":52,"reaction_counts":{"NI":52,"all":52,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"spicy_noodle_20","author_description":"20 \noccasional poet\ndiscord: spicy4200","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Lonely:","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/472541fa-17e4-9470-caff-83d160435ea3-1604517886560.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_472541fa-17e4-9470-caff-83d160435ea3-1604517886560.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_472541fa-17e4-9470-caff-83d160435ea3-1604517886560.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/472541fa-17e4-9470-caff-83d160435ea3-1604517886560.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/4ebd6615-5a04-2d47-b236-249683a294ec-1706019049934.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"spicy_noodle_20","id":"1b85d020-c3e2-4d5a-8924-5fec4717e252","nickname":"Andy","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/4ebd6615-5a04-2d47-b236-249683a294ec-1706019049934.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_4ebd6615-5a04-2d47-b236-249683a294ec-1706019049934.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/43ccf6d4-f32c-b5f6-aeb5-cb02a1988d29-1680059267776.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_43ccf6d4-f32c-b5f6-aeb5-cb02a1988d29-1680059267776.png","description":"20 \noccasional poet\ndiscord: spicy4200","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":7,"story_count":125,"reaction_count":857,"following_count":2942,"follower_count":607,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":304819,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr"],"social_urls":{"instagram":"sp1cy_exe"},"about":{"about":"level 20\nLgbtq+ safe page! anyone is welcome :)\naromantic","writing":"Poetry. Often vent poetry whenever I do write because motivation is difficult asf"}},"type":"story","tags":["lonely","alone","sad","depressed"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-04T00:24:50.380665-08:00","created":"2020-11-11T08:36:50.539815-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Lonely:","description":"Alone with the voices of negativity","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/472541fa-17e4-9470-caff-83d160435ea3-1604517886560.jpeg","slug":"lonely","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-11T08:58:11.158163-08:00","published":"2020-11-11T08:58:11.158148-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":83,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"1b85d020-c3e2-4d5a-8924-5fec4717e252","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"8af06c7a-592e-4d60-9865-2b087ba742cb","reaction_count":93,"reaction_counts":{"NI":93,"all":93,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kcpoetry_","author_description":"Overdosing on life","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Moonlight","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518128160709-c575457dafa5?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=T2C-6wdndPg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518128160709-c575457dafa5?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=T2C-6wdndPg","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518128160709-c575457dafa5?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=T2C-6wdndPg","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518128160709-c575457dafa5?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=T2C-6wdndPg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kcpoetry_","id":"e84f8f3c-e376-481a-bba5-b273942247c8","nickname":"Kase","profile_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"Overdosing on life","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":2,"reaction_count":4,"following_count":24,"follower_count":13,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":4555,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["moonlight","lonely","love"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:36:30.539657-08:00","created":"2020-11-10T22:11:45.688541-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Moonlight","description":"\nI need you","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518128160709-c575457dafa5?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=T2C-6wdndPg","slug":"moonlight","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T22:17:34.011481-08:00","published":"2020-11-10T22:17:34.011469-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/8af06c7a-592e-4d60-9865-2b087ba742cb-33.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":77,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"e84f8f3c-e376-481a-bba5-b273942247c8","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"5d30df94-e375-43f6-8911-aea6cce87c2b","reaction_count":14,"reaction_counts":{"NI":14,"all":14,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"mayonaze","author_description":"I like to write poems. DM with ideas! :)","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Silent Noise","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1589180883060-7e17fc2efaf6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=f2feIgqsIXY","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1589180883060-7e17fc2efaf6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=f2feIgqsIXY","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1589180883060-7e17fc2efaf6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=f2feIgqsIXY","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1589180883060-7e17fc2efaf6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=f2feIgqsIXY"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7a8f016a-f698-0504-7154-501595b6a39e-1602131937578.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"mayonaze","id":"ba4d115f-d7ca-4cae-a13a-2bfdd523a8d3","nickname":"Maya","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7a8f016a-f698-0504-7154-501595b6a39e-1602131937578.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_7a8f016a-f698-0504-7154-501595b6a39e-1602131937578.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9ada3105-6204-2f70-d8a1-f626737e308c-1602131952368.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_9ada3105-6204-2f70-d8a1-f626737e308c-1602131952368.jpeg","description":"I like to write poems. DM with ideas! :)","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":39,"reaction_count":59,"following_count":4,"follower_count":77,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":28185,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["love","hurt-","hurt","sadness","sad poems","sadpoems","lovepoems","love poems","drama","dramatic","poems 2020","poetry","poems about love","poemsaboutlove","being hurt","ignored","leftalone","romance","heartbreak","heart break","lonely","lost","lost-","not heard","nobody listens","listentome"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-12-30T20:54:55.960331-08:00","created":"2020-10-17T21:34:56.982747-07:00","deleted":null,"title":"Silent Noise","description":"A poem about not being heard. Sorry for not being as active! &lt;3 ","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1589180883060-7e17fc2efaf6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=f2feIgqsIXY","slug":"silent-noise","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T16:55:20.738131-08:00","published":"2020-11-10T16:55:20.738115-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":52,"comment_count":1,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"ba4d115f-d7ca-4cae-a13a-2bfdd523a8d3","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"26634866-aa12-466d-902a-94c8afc53e8a","reaction_count":24,"reaction_counts":{"NI":24,"all":24,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"moth_eat_cops","author_description":"oof. I'm sad im not a better writer","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Human Gore Model","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1520996729250-7d888a835cc4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_u3rMKylNdQ","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1520996729250-7d888a835cc4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_u3rMKylNdQ","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1520996729250-7d888a835cc4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_u3rMKylNdQ","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1520996729250-7d888a835cc4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_u3rMKylNdQ"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b08b924c-0c64-35fe-658a-05b36361c977-1605019720438.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"moth_eat_cops","id":"49f2b2f5-8df8-4db0-adfb-e8b4de137d70","nickname":"Moth","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b08b924c-0c64-35fe-658a-05b36361c977-1605019720438.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_b08b924c-0c64-35fe-658a-05b36361c977-1605019720438.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/60db5aac-3a90-c3f4-c64f-fe93beb3e3db-1605019899519.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_60db5aac-3a90-c3f4-c64f-fe93beb3e3db-1605019899519.png","description":"oof. I'm sad im not a better writer","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":33,"reaction_count":38,"following_count":24,"follower_count":29,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":34844,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["abandoned","gore","lonely","broken","whats happening","kinda dramatic ngl","don’t take it seriously"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-11-30T07:13:48.013605-08:00","created":"2020-11-10T09:32:58.946522-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Human Gore Model","description":"Trigger warning again, this one is just a little more graphic? and it&#39;s about the person I am and what I did to myself.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1520996729250-7d888a835cc4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_u3rMKylNdQ","slug":"human-gore-model","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T09:40:17.226824-08:00","published":"2020-11-10T09:40:17.226812-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":27,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"49f2b2f5-8df8-4db0-adfb-e8b4de137d70","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"b54b9907-d07b-40b1-aacc-22747b3a1363","reaction_count":3,"reaction_counts":{"NI":3,"all":3,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"marisha","author_description":"Things I love: reading, writing, etc","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Gatsby's Duck","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1539954435007-67fa2aeeb709?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=QJGlPS16Vvo","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1539954435007-67fa2aeeb709?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=QJGlPS16Vvo","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1539954435007-67fa2aeeb709?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=QJGlPS16Vvo","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1539954435007-67fa2aeeb709?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=QJGlPS16Vvo"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/4387181f-fa5c-803b-e4da-d8fec6113c48-1595440372968.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"marisha","id":"c079ac7e-73b5-4af6-a476-2a9a6448f70a","nickname":"Marisha","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/4387181f-fa5c-803b-e4da-d8fec6113c48-1595440372968.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_4387181f-fa5c-803b-e4da-d8fec6113c48-1595440372968.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/a78077ae-604a-9b84-54df-c88cc0c11a65-1595440383062.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_a78077ae-604a-9b84-54df-c88cc0c11a65-1595440383062.jpeg","description":"Things I love: reading, writing, etc","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":70,"reaction_count":116,"following_count":14,"follower_count":28,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":50616,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"lv1","badges":["lv1","gft"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["the great gatsby","thegreatgatsby","fiction","fanfiction","fan fiction","duck","lonely"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:35:18.140082-08:00","created":"2020-11-10T07:37:56.951077-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Gatsby's Duck","description":"A duck who learnt its lesson front The Great Gatsby.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1539954435007-67fa2aeeb709?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=QJGlPS16Vvo","slug":"gatsbys-duck","categories":["FC"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T07:46:49.738961-08:00","published":"2020-11-10T07:46:49.738950-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/b54b9907-d07b-40b1-aacc-22747b3a1363-25.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":7,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"c079ac7e-73b5-4af6-a476-2a9a6448f70a","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"94d6a69a-57bb-4596-b11b-f3ddb78f23d1","reaction_count":25,"reaction_counts":{"NI":25,"all":25,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"anykovarikov","author_description":"keep it authentic","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Are you with me?","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1488956322016-1e7554142097?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=I7BQ8hww9bE","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1488956322016-1e7554142097?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=I7BQ8hww9bE","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1488956322016-1e7554142097?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=I7BQ8hww9bE","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1488956322016-1e7554142097?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=I7BQ8hww9bE"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"anykovarikov","id":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","nickname":"blurry","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_ba139f8b-44c1-cfa0-1eea-74efac153ef2-1605017745173.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","description":"keep it authentic","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":1,"story_count":8,"reaction_count":56,"following_count":12,"follower_count":21,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":23860,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["feelings","sadness","missing","friend","lonely","left","gone","with you gone","life without you","cryig","cold","t e a r s","tears","cry","alone"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:49:00.951677-08:00","created":"2020-11-09T05:01:33.416323-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Are you with me?","description":"Short story from the hospital to the cemetery. I miss you.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1488956322016-1e7554142097?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=I7BQ8hww9bE","slug":"are-you-with-me","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T06:56:38.158150-08:00","published":"2020-11-09T05:17:09.678206-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":131,"comment_count":1,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"eb03e0f0-2eeb-4616-a2c9-620080f9c08e","reaction_count":26,"reaction_counts":{"NI":26,"all":26,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"anykovarikov","author_description":"keep it authentic","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"In too deep","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1448067686092-1f4f2070baae?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_3SFFsWqCVg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1448067686092-1f4f2070baae?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_3SFFsWqCVg","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1448067686092-1f4f2070baae?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_3SFFsWqCVg","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1448067686092-1f4f2070baae?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_3SFFsWqCVg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"anykovarikov","id":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","nickname":"blurry","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_ba139f8b-44c1-cfa0-1eea-74efac153ef2-1605017745173.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","description":"keep it authentic","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":1,"story_count":8,"reaction_count":56,"following_count":12,"follower_count":21,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":23860,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["deep","feelings","feeling","love","surrender","touch","you","us","hurt-","hurt","pain","sad","in my head","inmyhead","missing","lonely","needs","falling","down","bleeding","fall","blinded","blind","nosedive","edge","beyond","border","motions","moves","craving"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-01-22T07:10:50.424891-08:00","created":"2020-11-10T02:03:51.984459-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"In too deep","description":"For you I&#39;d bleed myself drain. \nA short poem about sinking deeper and falling too hard.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1448067686092-1f4f2070baae?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=_3SFFsWqCVg","slug":"in-too-deep","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-10T06:05:11.234137-08:00","published":"2020-11-10T06:05:11.234126-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":60,"comment_count":2,"dedications":{},"draft_text":"\n","draft_details":{"author":"","source":""},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"2c4b2abc-d4df-4fdc-bf2e-044ea6aab7b7","reaction_count":130,"reaction_counts":{"NI":128,"all":128,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"millie_bugs_","author_description":"I am the sorrow of the earth","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Grey Area","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/b8a836f2-04dc-9a6a-af15-188c366d1e86-1604979741287.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_b8a836f2-04dc-9a6a-af15-188c366d1e86-1604979741287.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_b8a836f2-04dc-9a6a-af15-188c366d1e86-1604979741287.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/b8a836f2-04dc-9a6a-af15-188c366d1e86-1604979741287.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7fd18074-5b1b-0e0c-829a-f4315b5b1a36-1665441939577.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"millie_bugs_","id":"56212e21-2f9b-4ffb-87dc-ed2fdf9dfe5b","nickname":"Millie","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7fd18074-5b1b-0e0c-829a-f4315b5b1a36-1665441939577.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_7fd18074-5b1b-0e0c-829a-f4315b5b1a36-1665441939577.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/79850385-fdb3-0af4-370c-2d89c8f85b8b-1665441959439.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_79850385-fdb3-0af4-370c-2d89c8f85b8b-1665441959439.jpeg","description":"I am the sorrow of the earth","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":21,"story_count":365,"reaction_count":2051,"following_count":94,"follower_count":4773,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":966185,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"str","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr","amb","pwr","str"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"Im a songwriter in nashville-\nthat's basically my whole personality ","reading":"I love lyrical works, or pieces that stem from emotional experiences. ","writing":"I write pieces inspired from nature and my emotions. "}},"type":"story","tags":["feelings","thoughts","poem","poetry","lonely","love","romance","confused","like","share","comment","shoutout","shout out","read","trending","featured","trend","commaful","spiral"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-11-24T11:04:57.715542-08:00","created":"2020-11-09T19:26:21.621090-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Grey Area","description":"i am confused.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/b8a836f2-04dc-9a6a-af15-188c366d1e86-1604979741287.jpeg","slug":"grey-area","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-09T19:45:34.704482-08:00","published":"2020-11-09T19:45:34.704467-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":613,"comment_count":6,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"56212e21-2f9b-4ffb-87dc-ed2fdf9dfe5b","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"697f305e-d145-42d0-8405-5566c63e0acc","reaction_count":24,"reaction_counts":{"NI":24,"all":24,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"anykovarikov","author_description":"keep it authentic","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Motions","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1542745177-dbb39b41df3d?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=W1J8mMlkmXY","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1542745177-dbb39b41df3d?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=W1J8mMlkmXY","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1542745177-dbb39b41df3d?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=W1J8mMlkmXY","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1542745177-dbb39b41df3d?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=W1J8mMlkmXY"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"anykovarikov","id":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","nickname":"blurry","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/738A93BF-4FB2-4135-A3AF-1CBB2BA7728C1605562983726.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_ba139f8b-44c1-cfa0-1eea-74efac153ef2-1605017745173.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_43fa2e1d-2863-320b-4a35-53e358d51062-1604922484377.jpeg","description":"keep it authentic","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":1,"story_count":8,"reaction_count":56,"following_count":12,"follower_count":21,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":23860,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["motion","motions","sad","feeling","feelings","lonely","dark","night","sadness","loneliness","alone","mind","thinking","think","feel","pain","hurt-","hurt","real","purge","perception","perfection","chasing","punishment","emocion","emocions","numb","coping"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:37:54.218407-08:00","created":"2020-11-09T05:20:25.178833-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Motions","description":"Many things happen just in one motion. So do I.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1542745177-dbb39b41df3d?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=W1J8mMlkmXY","slug":"motions","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-09T15:01:49.590005-08:00","published":"2020-11-09T15:01:49.589990-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/share/vid/697f305e-d145-42d0-8405-5566c63e0acc-235.mp4","share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":59,"comment_count":3,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"2d826f29-bd67-4fa0-b7a8-d67310d79b9c","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"e39512ce-ddf2-4777-87e0-59cf6bbe2e6b","reaction_count":27,"reaction_counts":{"NI":27,"all":27,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":1,"username":"ghostkid","author_description":"I write bad short stories and poetry","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"not alone but still lonely","first_page_image":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/blurred/sunrise1182.jpg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/blurred/sunrise1182.jpg","m":null,"l":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/blurred/sunrise1182.jpg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b82aee9c-cffa-ec54-fcae-e118d671aee8-1604942698986.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ghostkid","id":"d1401a5b-6d6d-47fa-9c04-155fbfa27f35","nickname":"Max","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/b82aee9c-cffa-ec54-fcae-e118d671aee8-1604942698986.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_b82aee9c-cffa-ec54-fcae-e118d671aee8-1604942698986.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/d61ad40c-66e4-17ed-6563-19f303b23259-1604942757328.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_d61ad40c-66e4-17ed-6563-19f303b23259-1604942757328.jpeg","description":"I write bad short stories and poetry","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":26,"reaction_count":67,"following_count":8,"follower_count":42,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":21945,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","lonely","idk what im doing","this sucks","wrotethisin3minutes"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:22:41.965462-08:00","created":"2020-11-09T09:31:49.525090-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"not alone but still lonely","description":"\n","thumbnail":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/blurred/sunrise1182.jpg","slug":"not-alone-but-still-lonely","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-09T09:39:48.977306-08:00","published":"2020-11-09T09:39:48.977291-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":17,"comment_count":3,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"d1401a5b-6d6d-47fa-9c04-155fbfa27f35","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"9ea9194a-efda-4fb4-a6da-01afa904a643","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"poemsbykid","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"\n\nI wanna love but it’s like fuck love\nNah it’s like I don’t deserve love\nI’ve abused love \nMislead love into believing I was fully there\n","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518541511379-fb7260465800?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=0ZF7BrJ2xmg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518541511379-fb7260465800?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=0ZF7BrJ2xmg","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518541511379-fb7260465800?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=0ZF7BrJ2xmg","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518541511379-fb7260465800?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=0ZF7BrJ2xmg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/894C7D3B-B40B-47A6-9A7A-3692F14753FF1575474800562.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"poemsbykid","id":"28305f88-76a5-4205-a359-e6b6f5a2d99e","nickname":"K.I.D📝","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/894C7D3B-B40B-47A6-9A7A-3692F14753FF1575474800562.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cat-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/7415977A-8C7D-4933-89A0-121CD8D680081575475040739.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":18,"reaction_count":34,"following_count":31,"follower_count":106,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":17787,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["heart","broken","love","relationship","relation ship","sad","feelings","lonely"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-12-26T22:30:07.533714-08:00","created":"2020-11-09T09:01:28.407668-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"\n\nI wanna love but it’s like fuck love\nNah it’s like I don’t deserve love\nI’ve abused love \nMislead love into believing I was fully there\n","description":"Self inflicted pain","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1518541511379-fb7260465800?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=0ZF7BrJ2xmg","slug":"i-wanna-love-but-its-like-fuck-lovenah-its-like-i-","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-09T09:04:06.657333-08:00","published":"2020-11-09T09:04:06.657318-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":9,"comment_count":2,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"28305f88-76a5-4205-a359-e6b6f5a2d99e","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"f4fb3158-6d0c-4e59-8b70-26e919fc7f5e","reaction_count":15,"reaction_counts":{"NI":15,"all":15,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"shevaunstonem","author_description":"writings, neuroscience, coffee & wolves","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"the flame","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d8d6a8a2-5341-c90f-0465-a0ee0001ca55-1604825569331.png","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_d8d6a8a2-5341-c90f-0465-a0ee0001ca55-1604825569331.png","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_d8d6a8a2-5341-c90f-0465-a0ee0001ca55-1604825569331.png","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d8d6a8a2-5341-c90f-0465-a0ee0001ca55-1604825569331.png"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9097541b-845d-65a7-8ced-ceb2c61c0064-1604825239526.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"shevaunstonem","id":"017325b3-b824-453b-ae15-199105ea2ad2","nickname":"Shevaun","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/9097541b-845d-65a7-8ced-ceb2c61c0064-1604825239526.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_9097541b-845d-65a7-8ced-ceb2c61c0064-1604825239526.jpeg","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/8b4630d4-0712-f13f-e08e-4e5411515efd-1604825254860.png","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_8b4630d4-0712-f13f-e08e-4e5411515efd-1604825254860.png","description":"writings, neuroscience, coffee & wolves","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":0,"follower_count":1,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":50,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["flame","fire","poem","poetry","poet","freeverse","free verse","lonely","alone","solitude","power","strength","symbolic","meaningful","metaphor","candle","passion"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:40:27.488621-08:00","created":"2020-11-08T00:50:45.296569-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"the flame","description":"the power of solitude.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/d8d6a8a2-5341-c90f-0465-a0ee0001ca55-1604825569331.png","slug":"the-flame","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-08T00:54:10.560509-08:00","published":"2020-11-08T00:54:10.560499-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":53,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"017325b3-b824-453b-ae15-199105ea2ad2","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"89618be8-7095-466b-b6e0-76913bb81cac","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"seankavanagh","author_description":"Hello my name is Sean.","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"                                                              \n                                                              \n                                                              \n                        THE STARS","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1501975558162-0be7b8ca95ea?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=rqWoB4LFgmc","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1501975558162-0be7b8ca95ea?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=rqWoB4LFgmc","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1501975558162-0be7b8ca95ea?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=rqWoB4LFgmc","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1501975558162-0be7b8ca95ea?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=rqWoB4LFgmc"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/999b274a-5ea3-b54d-0e55-36208028cb3d-1604678265258.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"seankavanagh","id":"693bb87b-1c5b-4c70-8ccc-d2ef95017813","nickname":"Sean","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/999b274a-5ea3-b54d-0e55-36208028cb3d-1604678265258.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_999b274a-5ea3-b54d-0e55-36208028cb3d-1604678265258.jpeg","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"Hello my name is Sean.","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":0,"following_count":6,"follower_count":2,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":70,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["poetry","feelings","lonely","stars"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-11-06T08:17:22.344794-08:00","created":"2020-11-06T07:59:29.802098-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"                                                              \n                                                              \n                                                              \n                        THE STARS","description":"Tonight, I began counting stars.  I counted them as friends. \n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1501975558162-0be7b8ca95ea?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=rqWoB4LFgmc","slug":"untitled","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-06T08:03:37.626044-08:00","published":"2020-11-06T08:03:37.626031-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":2,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"693bb87b-1c5b-4c70-8ccc-d2ef95017813","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"71103171-8c2d-4994-b2bc-aaf3de6472a4","reaction_count":17,"reaction_counts":{"NI":17,"all":17,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"amoran","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"I’m lonely.","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1519238425857-d6922ed3d613?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Uv2BaNZjjvY","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1519238425857-d6922ed3d613?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Uv2BaNZjjvY","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1519238425857-d6922ed3d613?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Uv2BaNZjjvY","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1519238425857-d6922ed3d613?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Uv2BaNZjjvY"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/74325BD3-1FE3-4FC7-842B-8C71BB72C01C1578120644000.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"amoran","id":"fca47de1-5c17-4846-a746-19c7d776773c","nickname":"poetry and such","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/74325BD3-1FE3-4FC7-842B-8C71BB72C01C1578120644000.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/profile_picture_default_36.jpeg","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/9CA06AE6-D4BA-489B-AF93-A8C9B0351FA41578120658842.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":2,"story_count":31,"reaction_count":83,"following_count":18,"follower_count":617,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":28673,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":["lv1"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","lonely","alone","emotion","mental illness","mentalillness","sadness","crying","cry","t e a r s","tears","quarantine","isolation","fear","afraid","depressed","depression","anxiety","anxious","bipolar","bpd","emotional","poet","poetry","poem","poems","romantic","romance"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-05-24T08:58:53.869852-07:00","created":"2020-11-06T00:41:09.101898-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"I’m lonely.","description":"Quick poetry rant. Kind of having a hard time lately :/","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1519238425857-d6922ed3d613?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Uv2BaNZjjvY","slug":"im-lonely","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-06T00:54:58.827161-08:00","published":"2020-11-06T00:54:58.827151-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":146,"comment_count":2,"dedications":[],"draft_text":null,"draft_details":{},"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"fca47de1-5c17-4846-a746-19c7d776773c","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"f9383889-9cbf-4dbb-8e2a-41084e5a331b","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ttttt_l4","author_description":"gifted writer 💛\nSilver comma🤍","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Heal....","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1447619297994-b829cc1ab44a?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=iQWvVYMtv1k","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1447619297994-b829cc1ab44a?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=iQWvVYMtv1k","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1447619297994-b829cc1ab44a?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=iQWvVYMtv1k","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1447619297994-b829cc1ab44a?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=iQWvVYMtv1k"},"author_profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/0E17CBF8-B374-4BF3-B83C-9B29490EEAF91585140626615.jpg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ttttt_l4","id":"c72dc981-a581-45ae-90c3-44d5a50eac2d","nickname":"T","profile_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/0E17CBF8-B374-4BF3-B83C-9B29490EEAF91585140626615.jpg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/wolf-profile-pic-thumb.png","background_picture":"https://pencilapp.s3.amazonaws.com/media/public/images/5D98329C-BF58-48EE-8406-B06D737EE34D1585140611176.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"gifted writer 💛\nSilver comma🤍","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":2,"story_count":104,"reaction_count":139,"following_count":13,"follower_count":121,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":107435,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","gft","lv2","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["feeling","sad","lonely","isolated","alone","depression"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-02-23T16:07:26.586029-08:00","created":"2020-11-05T03:35:17.535793-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Heal....","description":".... they, surely, must be hidden.","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1447619297994-b829cc1ab44a?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=iQWvVYMtv1k","slug":"heal","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-05T03:46:50.434567-08:00","published":"2020-11-05T03:46:50.434549-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":36,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"c72dc981-a581-45ae-90c3-44d5a50eac2d","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"576870fe-738e-45c2-8748-d3e52c6e353c","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"numicap","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Forgetting","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1604430456280-43f652c497aa?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Ovz3oM-95rE","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1604430456280-43f652c497aa?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Ovz3oM-95rE","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1604430456280-43f652c497aa?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Ovz3oM-95rE","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1604430456280-43f652c497aa?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Ovz3oM-95rE"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7c9b1774-315c-df87-9d89-1014ba225878-1604560833300.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"numicap","id":"bd89f0aa-32ec-4cf5-a61e-344f3c69054b","nickname":"Numica","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/7c9b1774-315c-df87-9d89-1014ba225878-1604560833300.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_7c9b1774-315c-df87-9d89-1014ba225878-1604560833300.jpeg","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":1,"reaction_count":1,"following_count":15,"follower_count":8,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":1091,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["break up","breakup","forgetting the past","lonely","one sided love","one-sided+love","onesidedlove","history"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2021-09-20T18:58:49.114960-07:00","created":"2020-11-04T23:08:46.389423-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Forgetting","description":"I guess it&#39;s only me   Who finds it hard to forget our history \n\nBy Numica Perera","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1604430456280-43f652c497aa?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=Ovz3oM-95rE","slug":"forgetting","categories":["FE"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-04T23:18:36.649978-08:00","published":"2020-11-04T23:18:36.649962-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":54,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"bd89f0aa-32ec-4cf5-a61e-344f3c69054b","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"aa615e62-4462-42e9-9ce6-75beb7865841","reaction_count":13,"reaction_counts":{"NI":13,"all":13,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kaneecia17","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Strikes","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1585509841077-b8668e20c5d6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=ERoXfV4-l1Q","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1585509841077-b8668e20c5d6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=ERoXfV4-l1Q","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1585509841077-b8668e20c5d6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=ERoXfV4-l1Q","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1585509841077-b8668e20c5d6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=ERoXfV4-l1Q"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kaneecia17","id":"bf180b9b-9506-4ebe-a295-5f3b5fcbe34f","nickname":"Kaneecia","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":12,"reaction_count":1,"following_count":13,"follower_count":17,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":857,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["sadness","dark","lonely","hopeless","hope less","poetry","dark poetry","darkpoetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2024-03-03T21:30:35.447390-08:00","created":"2020-11-03T21:08:54.369298-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Strikes","description":"We hide fearful of the dark..... and that&#39;s ok\n","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1585509841077-b8668e20c5d6?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=ERoXfV4-l1Q","slug":"strikes","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-03T21:50:50.952586-08:00","published":"2020-11-03T21:50:50.952570-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":21,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"bf180b9b-9506-4ebe-a295-5f3b5fcbe34f","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"15b8568d-2497-45b7-9eee-df606050ff7a","reaction_count":0,"reaction_counts":{"all":0,"top":[]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"kaneecia17","author_description":"Community member","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"Mother's cold shoulder ","first_page_image":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1551934262-db2d7dd517f4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=oB0xbLwcaMw","first_page_images":{"s":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1551934262-db2d7dd517f4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=30&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=90&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=oB0xbLwcaMw","m":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1551934262-db2d7dd517f4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=40&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=480&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=oB0xbLwcaMw","l":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1551934262-db2d7dd517f4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=oB0xbLwcaMw"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"kaneecia17","id":"bf180b9b-9506-4ebe-a295-5f3b5fcbe34f","nickname":"Kaneecia","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_067f37cf-21e1-bc78-f115-fd035b49a5c1-1604294486850.jpeg","background_picture":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default.jpg","background_picture_preload":"https://d2ekxuuyaakxli.cloudfront.net/media/public/images/pencil/assets/cover_default_preload.jpg","description":"","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":0,"story_count":12,"reaction_count":1,"following_count":13,"follower_count":17,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":857,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":null,"badges":[],"social_urls":{},"about":{}},"type":"story","tags":["lonely","sad","depressed","fearful","hurt-","hurt","attention","heartbroken","heart broken","craving more","sadpoetry","sad poetry","poems","dark poetry","darkpoetry"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2020-11-02T21:08:53.114971-08:00","created":"2020-11-02T20:37:03.344642-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"Mother's cold shoulder ","description":"The mother I always wanted but never got\n\nSource: tdkaneecia.blogspot.com","thumbnail":"https://images.unsplash.com/photo-1551934262-db2d7dd517f4?ixlib=rb-1.2.1&q=50&fm=jpg&crop=entropy&cs=tinysrgb&w=720&fit=max&ixid=eyJhcHBfaWQiOjEyMjZ9&imgid=oB0xbLwcaMw","slug":"a-mothers-shoulder","categories":["PT"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-02T21:04:26.699813-08:00","published":"2020-11-02T21:04:26.699801-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":4,"comment_count":0,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"bf180b9b-9506-4ebe-a295-5f3b5fcbe34f","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null},{"id":"44b88cc9-6263-4648-91c9-d116cf4b25c3","reaction_count":51,"reaction_counts":{"NI":51,"all":51,"top":["NI"]},"shoutout_count":0,"username":"ransdom_fujohi","author_description":"Its me the one and only <3!!","user_reactions":[],"user_shouted_out":false,"first_page_text":"💔L O S T  I N  D E P R E S S I O N💔","first_page_image":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/363986f0-a10b-d38c-1101-616c9ae0344b-1604375364587.jpeg","first_page_images":{"s":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/t_363986f0-a10b-d38c-1101-616c9ae0344b-1604375364587.jpeg","m":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/m_363986f0-a10b-d38c-1101-616c9ae0344b-1604375364587.jpeg","l":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/363986f0-a10b-d38c-1101-616c9ae0344b-1604375364587.jpeg"},"author_profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cc2b1675-fb2e-56b6-46d6-1f8f14a0483e-1661668368092.png","author_is_identity_verified":false,"author_is_elite":false,"author":{"username":"ransdom_fujohi","id":"4831f442-5544-4f05-8a11-bced8bbe651f","nickname":"♡🅁🄰🄽🄳🄾🄼 🄵🄰🄽🄶🄸🅁🄻♡","profile_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/cc2b1675-fb2e-56b6-46d6-1f8f14a0483e-1661668368092.png","profile_picture_thumb":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_cc2b1675-fb2e-56b6-46d6-1f8f14a0483e-1661668368092.png","background_picture":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/673342ac-76e8-fcf0-b3be-5f77e35a4367-1608789964562.jpeg","background_picture_preload":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/profile/t_673342ac-76e8-fcf0-b3be-5f77e35a4367-1608789964562.jpeg","description":"Its me the one and only <3!!","is_following":null,"shoutout_count":21,"story_count":217,"reaction_count":497,"following_count":308,"follower_count":261,"is_ambassador":false,"is_following_you":null,"is_identity_verified":false,"is_elite":false,"num_words_read":325532,"is_blocked":false,"featured_badge":"gft","badges":["lv1","lv2","gft","fqr"],"social_urls":{},"about":{"about":"currently rewriting \"A Boo's Love\""}},"type":"story","tags":["sad","death","lonely","killer","depression","quick story","short","just for fun"],"series":null,"image_collection_id":null,"img_story_src_details":{},"poll_info":null,"paywall_amount":null,"paywall_unlocked":false,"modified":"2022-08-28T20:58:00.150038-07:00","created":"2020-11-02T19:28:10.319158-08:00","deleted":null,"title":"💔L O S T  I N  D E P R E S S I O N💔","description":"A depressed murder, a short quick story of her.","thumbnail":"https://cdn.commaful.com/media/public/images/363986f0-a10b-d38c-1101-616c9ae0344b-1604375364587.jpeg","slug":"l-o-s-t--i-n--d-e-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n","categories":["FC"],"privacy":"P","published_public":"2020-11-02T19:57:24.181641-08:00","published":"2020-11-02T19:57:24.181625-08:00","share_gif":null,"share_photoset":{},"share_vid":null,"share_vid_short":null,"share_vid_preview":null,"page_hit_mark":222,"comment_count":9,"dedications":{},"draft_text":null,"draft_details":null,"is_nsfw":false,"is_multi_ad":false,"is_spellbound":false,"is_monetized":false,"paywall":0,"cutoff_page":null,"userId":"4831f442-5544-4f05-8a11-bced8bbe651f","img_story_src":null,"promoted_story":null}],"page":49}